I'm hardly ashamed to admit I'm a pornographer, and I always try to say that you can be a full person with an active online sex life (if you want to be). It's not sleazy gangsters or clients extorting me. It's sleazy producers who think that they can leverage the shame of my secret life. It's not a secret: that's the problem. As a trans person, the only safe life is one that's completely in the open. Without human rights, you need to journal and collect mountains of evidenc

This letter is written openly so that my position is clear, consistent, and not misrepresented. My brother and I were removed as discretionary beneficiaries of the Olga Riddell Trust by a deed dated 13 November 2020. That document exists, and I do not deny that it was executed. However, several things also need to be said plainly. First, our primary objective is simple: we are seeking to receive a fair share of the trust . We are not seeking punishment, public blame, or fami

One more point: if your father had died, and you had been blocked from inheriting, then how would you have felt? That's what you did to me, Uncle. Hence why I ignored you when you called me a bunch of nasty names this year. You sicced David on me, and that demonstrates that you hate me and my brother so much that you'd rather do anything other than actually meet us and discuss things. Regardless of whether you believe that I need to be locked up for the rest of my life in

Bluntly, Beyond Trans is a significantly better idea than Weeded Out. What do we need to win trans rights? Visibility for all trans* groups. What does Weeded Out provide? One magic trannie and a bunch of straights. Therefore, a documentary that is premised around the visibility gap and Debbie's Bill is simply the best film, both politically and based on my solid track record as a journalist. - What about the crews? Buy the script off me and rewrite. Plus Beatles in NZ wi

This isn't Shine. I'm not some hopeless alcoholic. A few beers a day isn't a crime. Unlike most of you, I'm still quite competent while wasted. The global classical music establishment is just like the local one: nobody wants to have to pay an actual licencing fee for my music, so they try to bully me into being the soloist. According to ChatGPT: since 2000, Gao Ping appears to be the only  composer to have premiered a major concerto-scale work with the NZSO while also perf

I believe that the most, perhaps only, complete way to take in the news without spin is to rely almost entirely on written accounts. That's a habit I formed in 2019. Sound and video can easily become manipulative, regardless of intent. The response to my new film is a reflection of my wee theory: if Stuff or RNZ or The Spinoff had run a web article with some stills, nobody would have cared. Reuters bulletins are great, but their standard is much higher than local papers.

I want to be clear about one point at the outset: Being asked to make a film I did not consent to making is not an option . I declined that project at the time, and I continue to decline it now. Following that refusal, I experienced what I regard as sustained and cumulative pressure. I am documenting this because the impact on my wellbeing was serious, prolonged, and required clinical intervention. This is my account of that period. Those records are not uniformly supporti

Why commit to somebody after being treated like a psycho for falling in love at all?

Look, there's no version of reality where people should be using back channels to insist that I have a wank because they're unhappy with my defence of my new movie. Yes, wanking can be relaxing. However, when I'm accusing a film producer of sextortion, then it seems more like an attempt to retraumatise me and destabilise me. - The placards were humorous, and I doubt the cops are likely to do much. As I alluded to yesterday, the flack I'm receiving is to do with Luxon's Tru

My spank bank comprises images used to troll me that turned me on. All they're hoping is that I'll give up on defending the Palestine film. Unfortunately, I have to defend it until the ad campaign ends. They're hoping to 'calm' me with my dick in my hands. That's just more threats. Carmen loved a wank, but I doubt she did so every day. - They literally tried to take the film off the air. Chloe's just coasting off being in it, but I'm the person who they were considering c

I'm sorry, but being told to make a film that my stalkers rewrote isn't ok. Take the Beatles NZ tour idea and run with it, making your nut in the process. Stand up to Peter and force him to unionise in order to make it. - Back Shipwrecked on Islands 2030 and get paid. Build a culture that isn't afraid of Hollywood, nor dependent upon them. - The gay community is welcome to create a variation of Weeded Out about their lives. Unfortunately, Conan made that weaksauce webser

No, I'm not interested in being in your films or directing them. You're the ones who are behind the game, while I'm way ahead. AI VFX of the type I've done for years are just entering your pipeline now. If you hadn't noticed, I'm attempting to get Wingnut and others to invest in an expensive NZ film that will use A-list Kiwi talent and make our lives into a Marvel movie. That's titled Shipwrecked on Islands, and is set in the near future. - I'm also insisting that my new

Difficult question. I read the Bentov book in my psychonaut days, and that's essentially what I believe. In that reality, it makes perfect sense that cultivating an altered state might ultimately create a frequency that matches a being (atua) at another frequency. The actual day had a mild amount of 50% THC weed, and one day of fasting. They primed the room with a rug that resembles the National Library logo. They gave me a couple of days to process the ancestry. What happ

I'm composing at the moment. I've written two hours of opera music this year, and I've also finished a string quartet. Despite that, I still put out two standards albums. I think I've done enough. I'm babysitting the Palestine video this week.

Why that slogan? I was thinking about the future, and what we'd need to defy the USA. That's what we need. People working for each other, not for international corporations. There's nothing wrong with that, but we need solidarity across the motu. If our Oceanic federation is to punch according to our weight at the UN, we'll need to build something like a largely sustainable (and self-sustaining) Pacific Rim economy. That's the message.

Yeah, it's a feature film. It's the first protest film that wasn't part of the AMPP series or The Dakumentary, but it builds off several previous Palestine rallies and the 2024 hīkoi film. - All volunteers, obviously. That's what makes it exciting. Wasn't cheap, but nobody was funding it. - It's relying on things like graphic matches and perspective matches to compress time. The big shot in the middle lasts 16 minutes. My take is is that the R100 auto exposure mimics hu