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Innate Harmonic Intuition: The Human Ear Before Pythagoras (ChatGPT 5)
The history of musical tuning and harmonic theory is often told as a story of discovery — a moment when Pythagoras, experimenting with string lengths, revealed that musical intervals obey mathematical ratios. Yet this account neglects the deeper truth that human beings already possessed an intuitive sense of pitch and harmonic relation long before any written system of measurement. The monochord was not an invention of harmony, but a translation of a universal, embodied perc
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 22, 20255 min read
'everything is political' - yeah, right!
For me, life isn't inherently political, but the non-binary band clearly sees things that way. What Cass hasn't said publicly is that she believed my identity wasn't valid. Because I wasn't 'transgressing' in US style. The Red Scare creeps spent years calling me a misogynist. They spent years trying to force an androgynous man that occasionally wore dresses. That's why I'm claiming it's conversion therapy. - Nothing could be further from the truth. I'm out and prouder th
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 21, 20252 min read


'please try doing live singing for us'
No. It's not good for my mental health, and I'm not suited to opera or show singing. The jazz album is significantly better because my vocals are suited to jazz. Opera singers can't scat. Opera singers can't produce microtonal scales. Opera people can't produce multiphonics (in several idioms). It's not overtone singing: it's whistling and singing, or activating guttural sounds. Whistling is the same as doing it with a wind instrument. Opera people can't do the Polynesian
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 21, 20253 min read
'be seen'
The boycott hasn't ended yet. It's still going until Weeded Out: the movie dies. As for 'do the gay drama for visibility' - no, hire a dumb bimbo for that. Visibility comes in many forms. Being a trans journalist and composer is visibility. The Dakumentary is about as long as Pose, cost tens of millions less, and had a transition rather than 'just' an out and proud person. Though the film isn't in chronological order, it's obvious that I start largely as a man, then finish
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 20, 20251 min read
To my enemies
Sorry. No, you can't agree to work with me in order for us both to get paid. Why? Because I simply don't want to, and I'm employable in other areas. You all have day jobs that pay well, so why can't I? - I know that you're all hurting financially in 2025. I know that you can't afford damages. You should have thought of that when you tried to harass me in 2022-2024. You should have paid me for the script in early 2023. I offered to sell it for $20,000. Cass and James, I
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 20, 20251 min read


To the creeps and the cowards
Don't pretend like what you did on BDSMLR or DeviantArt was ok. It wasn't. When one creates one of those profiles, they don't expect their friends to stalk them. I don't mind people wanking to those images; I hate selfies, so all the images are something that has composition, and I chose the stills with the best postures. However, creating responding images to bully me into being Tina is illegal. - As I say, much of Wellington's creative and queer community were involved.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20252 min read
The Performer’s Paradox: Why Acting and Mood Disorders Collide
AM: Despite the fact that many performers/actors etc. are bipolar, it strikes me as one of the worst jobs to have if you have a mood disorder. People stroking your ego when you're already prone to grandiosity is a recipe for Russell Brand. Kay Jamison quipped that researching is an ideal profession. ChatGPT 5 : It’s long been observed that many actors, musicians, and comedians live with bipolar disorder, yet few professions are as perilous for mood stability as the performing
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20253 min read
choices
When Don was 31, he founded the Mutton Birds. I wrote a string quartet, an opera and an analysis essay. Yes, I'm a world-class guitarist with several trendy minority points for the card players, but ultimately it's my choice not to play or sing in public until the harassment ends. There's at least a dozen other guitarists in my age group who are very good.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20251 min read
Balance
Having more than one vice seems to balance me out. As I am at pains to emphasise, it's only my alcohol use that I define as excessive. If I can't smoke weed, I drink more. People need to apologise. I can't feel secure until they do. That's actually professional advice from a counselor. Their bigotry made me an alcoholic, then they have the balls to blame me for drinking! - Making a TV show wouldn't resolve the issue. That's special treatment so others get rich. That's t
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20251 min read
What constitutes an apology?
Admissions that treating me like an animal or a circus freak was inappropriate and illegal. Admitting you got your rich allies on your side, then used your privilege to punch down. We only found out I'm royalty at the very end of this journey. You could've treated me with that same decency from 2020 forward. - Telling me that I deserved it doesn't constitute an apology. Even if I did, the methods were like a bloody torture porn novel. That's not ok. - Doing so in public
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20252 min read
'last year'
One of the helpful suggestions that the SIS have been making. Total fiction. No, after those silent vigils, I'm public enemy number one. The only way this ends is via the IGIS, or by reorienting our foreign policy. Either way, I'm not holding my breath.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20251 min read
To Steve Barr
You know you're in the shit, or you wouldn't be 'offering' me versions of Weeded Out and saying that I need to dress up to be tolerated. What did you think would happen when you blackmailed me? Sleazy film producers aren't above the law, no matter who their famous friends are.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 19, 20251 min read
What does it mean to be progressive?
At the very basic level, it's the foolhardy belief that one might leave the world better off than one found it, or that one's children might inherit a better world than ours. Then there's all the technical hullabaloo about progressive taxing, which means that taxes get steadily higher as people's incomes increase. It's hardly rocket science.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 18, 20251 min read
To The Film Commission
If you don't sell Steve Barr and a few board members down the river, then we'll end up in the unenviable situation of a prominent NZ filmmaker refusing to even meet the NZFC. I mean, think about it rationally. Steve's project would've required NZ on Air as well. You guys would've barely got a look in. Whereas I have at least two rock-solid feature ideas - Fantasia Italiana and Shipwrecked - that you want to fund, plus the shorts. We could even win an Oscar, given that there
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 18, 20251 min read


To my enemies
You can't watch over my shoulder. You have to admit that you have. You must accept that you're not co-owners of my songs. Going to uni and picking up a big loan = no obligation to return. You must settle with me financially for the breach of privacy. If these conditions aren't met, no future scores will be written. Classical music is going to have to admit that they treated me like a prisoner, not like an equal. It's an expensive mistake, and they need to look to RNZ, who li
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 18, 20252 min read
A diatribe about temp tracks
As someone that's both a director and a composer, I'm really sick of film scores. They're all boring and generic, including the hip, vaguely avant-garde indie scores. I blame the lack of imagination of my generation. In the old days, one made a six-stave score and demonstrated a film score on the keyboard or with a crude synth. Now, film demos are almost studio-quality, and often used in the final film. Not to mention people cloning the same six temp tracks for every mood.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 18, 20251 min read
Episode lengths
One of the great things about the streaming revolution was that there's no reason to standardise things like the lengths of episodes anymore, as opposed to broadcast media. Some teams leaned into that, but most people still keep the length consistent. AMPP, being by nature an active and reactive docuseries, didn't always suit that. The Dakumentary was a bit more consistent, but still had an overall variation of between one hour and three hours, plus one episode that was onl
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 16, 20251 min read
Redirecting violence
One of AMPP's satirical policies is that all major international disputes should be settled by a football or rugby match. People need outlets for those thoughts. Sports is a really good one.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 15, 20251 min read
To my enemies
James and Cassandra, what the fuck is wrong with you? It's not enough that you're being paid to do something that you studied to do; it's not enough that you're sociable and well-liked within the Wellington bullshitter circles; you had to have my mana as well. I've said no every which way. It's ironic that all this happened while I was crushing on Chloe, and in fact y'all used that crush as an excuse to stalk me further. Pot calling the kettle black, though at least I naile
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 15, 20251 min read
"money over wellbeing"
That's ultimately what my enemies chose. Money can buy happiness, but not if it's conditional on allowing people that stole my IP to boss me around. If I didn't have a case, I'd be filming that stupid series now.
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Amanda Riddell
Oct 15, 20251 min read
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