Why won't I come in from the cold?

Because the NZ School of Music doesn't have anything that I want. As I've established, there are legitimate reasons that I'm refusing: I'm ethically opposed to the business model that Victoria University of Wellington operates under, and I feel zero compunction to share my many talents with the same people that called me nasty names when I was a teenager. I don't want your help with my opera; none of you are vocal composers. - You don't understand, Salina: the tension in my life is what fuels my compositions, and being in genteel poverty is far more satisfying than being a pawn in the ongoing game of university rankings that all the NZ universities are obsessed with. I like being able to affect the whole me vs. the world thing, and that's often a motivator to write. For me, proving a point is a fantastic reason to write a classical score, and it doesn't prove that point if my enemies massage it into something that isn't challenging, or otherwise gentrify my criminal manner. If I took the Lilburn residence, VUW would claim credit for my entire oeuvre, even though a lot of it exists in spite of them, rather than thanks to their support. My situation is a lot better than yours at the moment: people are finally being forced to admit that I'm the full package as musician, while VUW is essentially cancelling the NZSM because of the snooty attitudes that you've demonstrated in this war. - Again, threatening me with 'Lilburn residence or jail' isn't a legally valid threat. I'm aware VUW is finding it difficult to accept that any bulge dramas weren't illegal, but that is precisely why they aren't allowed to ask me to return. The transphobia I've experienced from the university has been significant (imo). Y'all seemed pretty sure I was faking it, so now the answer is that I'm an independent composer, and I'm not keen to go to gigs because I want to hear apologies regarding all those harmful rumours about my feminine side Make me want to come to occasional events by being respectful of my independence. TWOA suits my educational kaupapa; you lot don't. Dr. Fisher, my answer is very clear, and those cease and desists were clearly read. I've declined, and that is a fair and stable decision. Using illegal means to persuade me reflects very poorly on the individuals that did so.