Why I smoke weed.

I'm calmer after those 2 cones. But now I feel cringe about Justified because of all the digs about how 'american' I am.

I'm actually as Kiwi as anyone, and this attitude makes me so pissed-off that it has sunk people's half-hearted offers to work with me.

I don't know what I want to watch.

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Re: guitar, I honestly think that's been the problem for me.

I love playing it, but atm I'm feeling pretty over the guitar.

And over music in general tbh. I want to feel there's more to my life than just strumming chords and dots on the page.

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That's what the job makes me feel. And the loneliness is what got me: Bringing in Christmas and New Year basically alone was too much for me.

I'd say the Brian Wilson phrase about how his chest bursts feels apropos here: I'm just out of ideas right now.

I think focusing on productivity was a silly thing to do given I'm technically on holiday.

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I like my hair. I saw it in the mirror today and thought it looked pretty solid. I'm a hippie - all my mates have long, thin hair.

While I just personally think that extensions aren't the vibe. I'd rather that people see my ugly face.

Yes, and the prejudice that my ugly face provokes is precisely why I advocate for legal protections for gender-diverse people.

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To be clear, I'm not a tranny chaser. In my mind, I see myself as a real woman.

And that's attractive to me, but only because I've never felt comfortable about ogling women.

I find gender non-conformity to be generally attractive to me, but yeah I'm an asexual fruit.