Peer pressure

You know, one thing that irritates me is that people suddenly think that my trans identity is more valid when they find out that I had sisters. I think that's incredibly stupid. That suggests that femininity is purely mimetic, rather than the internally felt feeling that transfeminine people experience. I don't wear makeup or hair extensions because I much prefer women au naturel. Amber is really good at using makeup, but she's naturally pretty too. Barbara looks gauche, and I think that makeup makes her look older than she really is. - One of the reasons that I'm very sceptical of your ideas of me returning triumphantly now that I've thoroughly shamed the entire bloody town is that teenage me got told that I needed to slim down and be more feminine, and that would make people like me. I did so, and people made favourable comments, but it didn't fix the chill and I was still left with my nerdy friends rather than anyone that was popular. Part of why I refuse to work with Salina is that I hold a grudge about the awful bitch that she was in high school. Like, our science teacher literally said that to her in a tirade, then her parents complained and he was forced to apologise. - To the enemies:

If you think that I haven't 'transitioned enough' - the answer is because you're still viewing transing gender as a binary. As in, people are only ftm or mtf; that's not the reality, which is why I prefer to use terms such as gender minorities or Indigenous terms for gender-diverse people. I'm fine with my style, and it's you lot that find my body hair discomfiting. Making people uncomfortable actually isn't illegal: unconditional tolerance would also mean tolerating my mood swings and being aware that your negative comments make me suicidal, much like I'm quasi-anorexic due to high school trauma. In fact, I'm fighting to maintain this style, and that's why I'm rarking people up regarding the Human Rights Act. Trans people have the right to bodily autonomy. In fact, the Bill of Rights Act allows me to refuse any and all medical treatments. Another thing that would be different had we all played fair is that you could have placed me under a compulsory treatment order and pressed charges. So far, I'm not under a compulsory order, though I am under observation. Threatening me as if you've pressed charges is actually perverting due process. I dare you to face me in court. I suspect that I've done a good job of defending myself, and part of the reason that you haven't taken things further is that your case is thin, while my defence is quite strong. 🏳️‍⚧️ - Also, another note: when did I ever imply that Chloe's lesbian relationship wasn't valid? Pursuing her was selfish, but I can't remember ever saying that it wasn't ok to be gay in that particular context. In fact, I'd say that I'm a classic example of a socially liberal person: I find the gay subculture isn't my space, but I accept their right to exist, and to create exclusionary spaces for themselves. In fact, one of my manias was driven by the sense of outrage I had when a pro cricketer called another one a faggot on the field. I'm simply asking for the cannabis culture to have those same rights, and believe me when I tell you that lots of trannies are potheads. 🍀 Given the trauma, I want to be able to exclude the gay community that interrogated me and decided that I wasn't valid until I wrote a script that made them see dollar signs. And then they found out about my cloudy Māori ancestry... that's tokenism. I'm not a tchotchke that lives in your phones: I'm a real person, so treat me as such, rather than interviewing my brother because he convinced you all that I was a psycho, then went and lost his mind. I'm not doing a thesis defence, and that's precisely why I'm grateful that Emanuel simply commissioned me; that allowed me to free myself and use the unconventional techniques that I used to generate that piece. The Jewish words aren't specifically for Chloe, Paul and Grace, but it's nice to be able to show off all of that cultural knowledge. 👋🏻