'I don't want to talk about it'

For me, what the AM shows from 2022 and my soap script really show is that people were both too uncomfortable to ask me questions about my trans identity, but also filled with moral outrage that demanded answers.

I can't help it that Eilish, Lucinda and Alexandra were short, but they were all age-appropriate and all platonic.

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Yes, I was assaulted. Yes, I was groped. Yes, I was intimidated.

This is why I've told people not to touch me; believe me, you do not want to open that can of worms.

It cost me a lot to pull this off, and it's been several years of intense scrutiny from the cops and the spies.

I prefer to skip over that, but it was (and is) very real.

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There are things I don't talk about in public now... those are very long conversations, so be prepared for those if you want to be close with me.

PS: I out people. So consider that too... Michelle Kan wasn't happy that I outed him, but I'd read his FB posts about gender dysphoria and presumed he was out.

Similar vibes re: other people - I thought everyone was already out! 😅

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See... 4 years later, and I'm still including those caveats. That's why Wellington doesn't get to make my gay show: my climate anger is more relatable to those bigots, and a way of subversively including gay/queer characters.

My book is a good goal, but it's not happening quickly. I found the notebook I want to use, but the words are blocked by my own internal censor... I'm not quite sure how to start.

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The Big Smoke answered the key questions, but even the accusation that I was into children is so shocking that I'm fuming that the onus was on me to disprove that (much like the burden of proof is sometimes reversed for drugs).

But now I am saying no to any further use of my songs. I only played the chords in Auckland, and I'm not singing them again until I get the demos I want and the 2030 show is continuing to inch towards completion.

I will not perform them. Not for any enticement or incentive. Read the scripts, then make a better effort at treating me like a human being who isn't there to make you seem tolerant and socially liberal.

Nobody likes feeling tokenised, and those vibes are why my Beach Song had real fire. This, also, is why the classical scene irritates me: lots of guys feel my feelings - very few have the courage to out themselves.

While women in men's clothes is a social norm; you'd expect the trans theorist to drop that bomb.