Being famous

Tried to rewatch The Dakumentary last night, but couldn't make it past episode four. Though I had some sense of local celebrity in Wellington from 2020, the cannabis film has made me into something of a cult figure. People recognise me, and have begun to attempt to influence me. Being trans doesn't invite people to start conversations with you, so I seldom get the bullshit that cisgender celebrities might face. Instead, I get a whole other layer of indirect bullshit, which made me block the news feed on Facebook. - There are perks. Political influence, people bending rules for me, a layer of safety. The main negative is that my private life is now public, and there's no way to put the genie back into the bottle regarding my bipolar confessing sprees. People can find out a lot about me from my activism and movies, but for me it's like I was living The Dakumentary for a couple of years, so reliving it is strange. Even though the film is beautiful and elegiac and funny, I keep thinking about all the effort that's been put into drug law reform - years we can't get back - and that we missed a big chance in 2020. - That shot of the cops grilling Dakta in episode 3 puts everyone in their shoes, but I've seen it dozens of times and put it in a context. It's too real to me, and freaked me out. Plus I made the AMPP series too, which I've just been watching. At a certain point, it's done and dusted, and I've got an opera to compose.