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another rant poem - heed my words, stalkers

  • Writer: Amanda Riddell
    Amanda Riddell
  • Nov 20, 2023
  • 3 min read

It's pretty rich to think of yourselves as outsiders when you work for the man, and have six-figure combined salaries.


That's my view of the stalkers, while I lost two jobs that I really liked for being too weird -


Yeah, we have a long way to go, but that's actually not my responsibility.

That's on you with your privilege and your damn non-binary band.


I'm one person, while you're a team of people with far more priviliege. 🏳️‍⚧️ -


As I say, I can see that my style caused a shockwave and you are following my dust.


I refuse to help my spoiled 'allies': that's fair. -

The way I see it: I fought hard to emphasise the inherent legal right to be out, it's on you lot to make society behave. If your band was achieving tolerance, then this discussion would be moot, but it's obvious that my protests accomplished something


You'll never be my bestie, Cass.

I don't want you there; being into showtunes doesn't make me your friend Running out of the room during that West Side Story screening makes you my enemy

Ethan said James isn't a good writer, and I tend to believe him. 👋 -


I'm not interested in living with a couple: that's a hard no.


I don't care if your boyfriends are cucked, ultimately they will take a swing at me; that's because they'll get jealous. - I don't think rich people are behave better than poor people: they've just got resources that hide and elide their bad behaviour. I put my money into my cause, which I think is more ethical than fancy holidays ✊ -


I hate you for being unable to accept that you projected into my stories and caused me a huge amount of grief by doing so.


What made you think Garyfilm was about you two, james and cass?

Same with Three Sad Waltzes: I hate it when people who only saw what they wanted to see blame me or say that my Chloe obsession was stupid. -


I've said this all before. Several times.

That's why no means no.

Tam, I'm never going to agree.

I want the cops to discuss this, but oh wait, they don't care.

It's only the artists who care that I avoid their plays and dislike their attitude. -


I don't want to be their star

I don't want their help

I want an apology

How dare they!

No Owen and Jane,

No James and Cass,

No Tam

Only no.


I was hoping that te haika convo from last night where I explained how much you've hurt me was the end of this.


That's how you made me feel, Cass: as if I was a bad trannie and inadequate

Yet you desire my voice.

What gives you that right?

You dislike how I behave, but imo you have behaved like a spoiled drama queen that isn't used to people saying no.

That's what happens when you get scholarships and make valedictory speeches; You're not used to rejection, particularly from someone you feel is beneath you and that's why I'm not your friend.


I feel you're arseholes, and that I dislike your attitudes.


No vale, no tina, only no.

Now, if you want me to be stable, stop trolling me about this idea.

Cass, simply accept my no.

I've spent months saying no.

You're a spoiled bitch, and I'm broke.

You're standing in the way of my chance for happiness by insisting that I help you. -


I refuse to.

No 'i robert' only no.

Always no.

No deal, no series, no tv, no stage.

Only no.

Now stop so I can write.

Accept that you 'fans' projected the same way that I projected into Chloe's FB page. I barely thought about you until after you started forcing your way into my world. -

That's why I keep saying no.

That's why I swore at you in s2e1 of Weeded Out

No talent army, no series, no tina,

No deal.

only no.

No 'pacific guy' - always trans.

Always allowed to be, and stop stalking me.

Stop hoping that I'll say yes and accept no.

That's all. My IP is sacrosanct, and any real writer would respect that. Ciao AM


 
 
 

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Amanda Riddell
Amanda Riddell
Nov 19, 2023

A bonus poem: Astrid, I'm not going to forgive you.

I'm angry at you, and there's no nice way of saying 'you stole $400,000'

You had personal assets of $1.5 million.

I wasn't even on the bloody mortgage for Wallace Street, so you literally stole that money out of my mouth and also the fair split that Andrew's previous will had where all the kids got 1/6th of that money. It's great that you like my art, but yeah, that smarts; particularly now that my savings from the house sale are dwindling and my student loan is still around $48,000.

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