Why won't I act?

Because it truly and honestly makes me suicidal. That's what happened when I was making those Weeded Out cartoons: I ended up in the hospital after my screen test. I've got gender dysphoria: it's hardly positive to be photographed constantly, and that is honestly why I'm angry at my 'friends' that were only interested in using me for their gain. Also, I see it as my protest against the powers-that-be. I can make my tapes at home, and that's all that I need. If they want me as a cash cow, they'll find me unavailable. In fact, I was in the Emergency Room several times over that era of late 2022-2023. That is why I refuse to act. Hugs won't make it better, but my writing is actually helping me with getting over my trauma. Now, be reasonable and start dealing with me as a writer/director that has real talent.