To Wingnut, SPADA and other dickheads

I'm not 100% sure if I'm coming to Question Time tomorrow. I haven't booked a ticket, and I'm in a mood where I'd rather be at home.

I'm slightly up. I think you've gathered that. -

I don't want the money; I'm not redoing my Weeded Out script, and that's final.

If I'd thought the notes were good, this would have been moot. However, I really disliked the notes, and thought it was utter bullshit to try and steal my 2030 songs due to being pussies that were afraid of that 2030 script (and my genuine trans identity).

That's why I'm saying no. These people figured, 'oh, we'll placate this freak and we'll seem woke' while I felt like I had a good idea that I wasn't equipped to do justice to.

That was a fair assumption after watching my films. Yes, it's interesting for a webseries, but no, I couldn't carry a series. Particularly given that I fucking hate being told what to do, I know where the camera goes, and I have basically zero faith in people to film me in a way that cuts together properly. -

That's my answer. Again, this is based on evidence: Stephen and Michelle shot those videos of Mike and Nick doing Debussy, and the cuts were crude.

Meesh is a good stills photographer and documentaries, but she doesn't shoot fiction in a way that cuts.

Particularly features. that's my answer.

While even my rough assembly of Golden Springs cut together quite well, and that was literally shots outside a car window. - Several of my random Dak films are over 20 minutes long, and they're held together largely by my sense of what cuts and what doesn't. They're not using fancy cameras: that's footage shot on phones and it's still compelling. I've made several features; they might be experimental, but they're still feature length and several thousand people watched them. -

Bad Man was mostly one-shot scenes, which sort-of proves my point, and Stephen was literally furious at Ethan and Michelle for not blocking the scenes. The way he told it, he blocked most of those skits, and the two of them didn't even bring storyboards to set.

I'd rather make a comic book. That's like making storyboards but with colour and all that fun. Plus transgender journeys are largely internal rather than external, and that's why I'm fixated on my book as the idea that will bring this all together. -

Everyone else is complaining because they wouldn't get paid if I wrote a book. That's utter bullcrap: I begged them to buy my draft and do what they wanted. That was a legitimate offer, yet instead I got a lot of hooey about being 'the one' and the idea that I was somehow irreplaceable as the star for the project of that Weeded Out trilogy. That's utter bullshit, and you all damn well knew that I was hoping somebody else would be the star. I tried myself as Tina, and I wasn't up to it. That's why I gave up. - That's fair; you all agree that I'm not up to it, but wish that I'd improve. How about being honest and accepting that I'm a director and not a movie star. You dislike my singing, you dislike my politics, but you want me to do my pop songs nonetheless?? What the fuck is that?? That's laughing at a neurodiverse person. That's exploitation. only no, always no. No deal, no series, no way of persuading me. Pay me for my current draft or fuck off. That's fair. VUW can't own it until they pay me. That's my answer. -

It's not my fault that they said no to that offer because they want me to agree to license those songs, and I'm simply not going to.

Cass should have paid me. Meesh too. And yes, all the rich asian girls could have had the courage to do that, rewrite and then make their own thing about themselves. That's a fair answer. I don't want to make an arse of myself doing those songs in a quasi-Don style. That's not the point.

I want background vocals, I want my 2030 muscial and that's the grand design. If the occupation had never happened, you'd have bought that 2030 script imo. 🐝 -

I'm never going to hire James and Cass, Peter and Fran. Seriously: never.

That's my answer. Only no. -

It might take me three years to finish that 2030 script, and it'd still be 4 years in the future.

That's my belief. Plus I'm more than willing to compromise: we do my concept album, and if that doesn't work then we don't waste $10-30 million on a film.

But, if that album works, then everyone should get on board and believe that I know what makes a good film.

The 2030 concept is non-negotiable. That's my bottom line: it's that story, or no songs.

I've literally told you that you have significant creative freedom to redesign my 2030 story, so long as I have 100% control over all the music and lyrics.

That's been my pitch. That's still my pitch.

But the concept of a futuristic musical involving climate rebels and freedom militia is non-negotiable. - This didn't have to be a tough negotiation, but it has become one because you shits won't back off about Tina.

That's pissed me off, particularly given that 'be a man' and transphobic messaging from my supposed 'allies'. That means NO.

That means only NO.

That's why my transphobic 'allies' are no longer allowed to fucking butt in with their bullshit reckons unless they're willing to handle my anger shooting at them until they fuck off. -

I'm not attending anything until people honestly have the guts to fess up, face up and fucking well apologise. Have any of them seen my dick?

None of them. They saw a bulge in my pants and/or heard ugly rumours.

That's my answer.

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Picture this: instead of spending the last three years interrogating me endlessly and attempting to put thoughts in my head, what about three years where you actually bother to meet me, get to know me, and don't get paid for that privilege?

That's my answer. Meet me, buy me dinner, get to know me as Amanda and get to understand me by knowing me personally, rather than filming me and then laughing behind my back (as per always).

That's more than fair.

Because otherwise it's an impasse; there is literally not enough money in the world to force me to work with people on a script that I'm no longer interested in, and no we're not going to break out into old friends because we were never old friends.

You laughed at me at uni, non-binary band, and you're still laughing at me now.

You're not laughing with me. My stoner friends are the ones who are laughing with me.

That's harsh, but after all this bullshit, I think that I'm allowed to be harsh. ✊