Regarding Pan's Preludes

I'm playing the long game. For me, it's ok if it takes another decade to get a performance. My MIDI version was dope, and thoroughly proved that I have a very broad knowledge of both classical music and New Zealand history. For my critics, allies and enervated folks that can't take no for an answer: write your own damn piece! - Seriously. You've heard it; I've published my scores on YouTube, so just run with what I did and boost your own careers. That's my answer to any guitarists or composers that are wondering what to do post-Pan. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uCytReQVoh0&list=PLcRO8brBJIoitW0-4vJEjzQrPCSNBwKGR&ab_channel=AmandaRiddell - Otherwise, I've had several ideas for performing it where I'm not the soloist, and I insist that people cease pressuring me to practice. I'm busy writing this year; take a hint from my short stories that I'm writing a book. Then, in 2025, I'm intending to to a full studio album of Shipwrecked on Islands. That would include Pan's Preludes, so that's when I'll be doing a premiere recording, though I fully intend to take advantage of being in the studio to get specific guitarists to do specific movements. - Why? Because I want to showcase Rameka and Lucinda and Chris and Owen. There are so few opportunities for guitar, so why leave it to one soloist? - To cite precedent: Sondheim was a better-than-average pianist, yet literally never played piano on anything that he ever composed (except for Reds, the Warren Beatty film).

That's why his scores sound extra-good. Pro players are better than composers, and that's fundamentally a facet of the interpreter-executant divide that still largely rules the roost in classical music.

I'm good, and I have freakish technical gifts, but I'm at my best when it's me on my own, or me playing for people I like. - To the orchestras: no, not even one movement until I get that studio recording. This is the same tactic I'm using with the TV people. The Shipwrecked score is spoken-for by that 2030 climate change musical and, until that's done as a radio play, then I'm not licensing my original songs. That's fair, that's reasonable. That's being a professional who is angry at the industry, yet cognisant enough of the rules to use them to her advantage.