Gender Expression

Ok, this is me debunking all the bs that I think other people think about my trans identity and my sexual orientation. - 1. I'm not going back to 'be Andy' or to be a guy full-stop. If you think I could have a fabulous career, but for my transvestism, you might be right; however, it's your responsibility to change the law to ensure I can have equally good opportunities as Amanda. 👍 - 2. I'm not ditching the 2030 musical. I didn't write it because I was into Chloe initially, and the impetus comes from well over a decade ago. I became more into her over the course of writing it, but honestly it's a selfish desire to expand my musicals into a new realm by adding action scenes that excites me. - 3. No, I was NOT diagnosed with a fetishistic disorder. Perhaps I'm a fetishist, but it wasn't diagnosed as a disorder (because I was diagnosed with GENDER DYSPHORIA). - 4. I'm not aroused by my clothes, and that hasn't happened for a very long time. From when I came out, I've barely felt that way. I am, however, aroused by the idea of someone fucking me. When I came out, it stopped being a fetish and started being my life. But because I've made so much progress with that, it's not possible to persuade me to go back to my old self for money. I think everyone will dig the book, and then perhaps we can discuss whether anyone would like to adapt the stories after I've written it. - 5. Yes, my body hair really bothers me. When I initially came out, I was fully prepared to be a radical fairy, but after 6 months of that I shaved so people would treat me better. Which they did; I still want the option to explore my facial hair the way Mika does. I'm fine with removing all my body hair, but I can't afford to; people should make allowances for the fact that I'm essentially poor, and many trans people are in similar situations. - 6. When I say masochism, it's what it says on the tin: I deliberately starve myself, I'm quasi-anorexic, and I punish myself for having impure thoughts about people. I tend to think of my guitar practice with the freakish scales as being like me playing domme with myself, and FB has that element occasionally too. I have lots of negative self-talk, but I find the strident tone on my tapes energises me (as well as other listeners). ✌