degrading tactics

Such as using pornographic memes to talk to me aren't helping anybody. If there are miscommunications, that's why they're happening. It's an affront to my dignity that you're unable to simply sit in a room and talk to me. Wasn't diagnosed as DID or autistic or held under a CTO. Years of using these methods haven't resulted in outcomes that people want, to judge from the number of people that have directly or indirectly threatened me. I don't want to rejoin a society that wouldn't confront their issues with me openly, and they're not going to get any apologies or concerts. It's a difficult situation, and you can see how that might lead to high levels of mental distress. - This goes double for my family or people that claimed they could help me via finding ways to avoid paying me. If I've authorised lawyers to pursue Olga's estate, that's a result of what happened with Andrew's estate. People might need to treat me like an adult that's unemployed rather than a spoiled brat that they can call a pervert. Let's accept that all the things you thought 'helped' me didn't do that. I don't need your help to fix my music, but I do need people to find ways of communicating with me that aren't about making me seem like a creep. Like, you're the ones that have forced me to negotiate with my dick in my hands, and that wasn't my choice. It might take statements in my inbox where people reveal that they read my AMPP information to build some trust. - I'm sick of living with the stigma of being called a liar without being punished. People need to complain directly, rather than all this endless sniping behind my back that I'm finding out about via the porn memes. It's the bigots that are bringing up blood lines, not me. Tory's made my relationship with Wellington far worse, and that's something I'm hoping that the new mayor will repair. You can't force me to be Tina, and I'm more than willing to go to court to prevent production. VUW has to apologise formally before I'll lift a finger in Wellington. If people want me to be 'less creepy', they need to humanise me via methods that have nothing to do with filming me, photographing me, exploiting my voice or likeness, and don't involve them getting paid. - People need to be honest with me, and I cannot be legally forced to act or sing. If I am unwell, it is because you're not willing to let me work a job, you're not willing to let me film a film that isn't titled Weeded Out or perform a concert that isn't your vision. That is an untenable reality. If I'd been paid to rewrite the script, then I'd have made a decent chunk of change. The film can't be made without my IP rights, so piss off.