bread and circuses
- Amanda Riddell
- Aug 27, 2023
- 1 min read
This is my snark about TV programming in NZ. I think that's the general vibe of most of the programs. People would rather watch The Block than confront the insanity of house prices... well, those few who still watch TV anyway. And that's also sort-of how I feel about the feedback re: my soap opera. The suggestions were mostly making it more harmless and less confrontational, which ticked me off. - As we can see, I invested most of my emotional energies into the climate change musical: that's the one I'm really keen to nail. Pun not intended... I honestly don't think of Chloe sexually very often. Whereas women who I know well, I find I'm more likely to fantasise about. My take on my own sexuality is that if I'd really wanted to get laid, I would have by now, but obviously I've never felt ready or willing. Which suggests that I'm not naturally inclined towards procreative sex.
I define myself as demisexual rather than purely asexual, but I've never been in a situation where it was ok to explore sexual desires for someone. Well, my music does, but the grope-y vibes when I came out were the closest I've ever come to lovemaking. 🤣 I'm all kinds of fucked-up, but I like to think I'm still good at delivering the goods creatively and also with my writing.