brain droppings 24.4.2023

See, I disagree.

1. Red Scare aren't my friends.

2. The players I mentioned mostly are friends.

3. I'm not interested in making Tina. And that's because this process has been shit.

I've hated defending my show to arseholes.

And I've especially hated all the fucking attempts to stuff with my wanks.

You lot turned something that brought me joy into

torture, and then you want me to thank you?

Hell no. No means no re: the tina show. -

Buy my scripts, but piss off about whether I should

direct.

And NEVER mention acting to me ever again.

I'm not doing that, and that's fair.

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To be blunt, Alan Bennett doesn't star in his plays.

If I wasn't a queen, you lot would never have asked.

I'm someone who is really good behind the camera, and invented a bunch of quirky ways to create a disembodied screen presence.

To throw Don's words back at him: my activism is

real, while I think performing it for film people would be really naff.

And I particularly think copying my POAK process to make a lame-ass version of the Tina story with my songs is a terrible idea.

That's a note that sunk the negotiation. -

Seriously: Shipwrecked is my dream, and the other

thing is something the luvvies can do for themselves.

I don't want the luvvies in my life.

Unless they want to get 100% serious about activism. -

I refuse to act. I refuse to be a movie star.

I choose to focus on my writing.

Anything that gets in the way of my writing isn't something I'm doing this year.

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I'm not explaining myself.

I'm just not.

Regardless of what Mary and Paddy etc. think,

I think people can tell I'm the same person

and that's because the guitar sounds the same.

I don't think it's even remotely interesting

that I'm trans, and that's because for me it's

just my life. I've been that way for most of it.

And if people are baffled, so much the better.

Particularly those who hate me. They should be

baffled; regardless, I think the Dak film

is all-ages. -

Smoking pot should be R18, but watching films

about pot should be PG or M.

Depends on how 'sexy' people think my performance was.

Not one episode. Not one scene. Not one skit.

I'm not making the Tina show. Buy it off me.

That's the only option for my stalkers.

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ha - saw your bra strap, Chloe. 🤏

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The new dumb phone can record voice memos, but I can't send them to my PC.

I tried Bluetooth. I could send them as texts, but the file size was too large.

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No, I'm not putting On A Clear Day back in. I just don't think it's necessary.

Yes, people remember it; that's the local thing. But for an international audience, it's just a fuzzy image.

Ultimately, I cut plenty of film of Dakta that was useable -- the film's still too long anyway.

Same with the bio stuff -- you know, I said two years ago that I'd rather talk about myself on The Project.

As the director explaining the dak film (or my relationship with Chloe).

I don't think who I am is important to the flow of the Dakumentary, and I think too many selfie shots and it stops feeling like cinema.

- Future plans:

I don't think I'd base my animation studio in Wellington.

As I say, I'd rather do my work somewhere else, but I can't afford to move atm.

Honestly, I think VFX artists charge a lot in Welly, and that in other centres I might get cheaper rates.

That's the downside of the PJ effect: because he attracts all this high-caliber talent, it's very expensive.

That's why we weren't able to use Park Road for Portrait of a Knight. We had a real meeting about using their chapel for our scoring session; the engineer insisted on cans, though, and we thought that was bullshit -- pro orchestra players hate clicks, as the sort of rhythm we're taught is somewhat different to groove-based rhythms.

John Williams conducted freehand when making the iconic scores, so I think that's another point in favour of not using cans [headphones]. -

My scheme for the Shipwrecked sessions with the band involve taking some drugs. Areoplain is a drug-induced record, and I think there's a flow that getting stoned creates.

Glad They Were Playing might be a guitar solo, but I think the rest of the songs will have instruments to add texture and colour.