About those tech videos...

That was a really strange moment for my relationship with Jane. We got paid for those, which was great, but the filming process meant that I had to be right behind her arm .. it was strangely intimate.

Yeah. That's the kink again: the idea that I was so close to her without touching her was arousing, and tbh I think she knew that.

That's why I find Jane a wee bit scary - she really does know me too well, though the trans thing surprised her. 👩

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I think I could do straight sex; I think I'd need some mental motivation, though .. dunno what that would be.

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Ah, that's what happened with Chloe recently when I got aroused when I saw her. But yeah, I'm scared of her for no good reason.

I dunno why that is... 🤔

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Ok, so yeah. I still have delusions that Stephen died when he jumped off the wall.

I realise that's not true, but yeah, it's a thought that recurs.

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Yeah, hopefully the beard grows in by May.

I'm not thinking such a thick beard, but the gingerness is undeniably awesome.

This was always my long-term goal: as the hair on top thins, I plan to use the beard to distract from that.

I reckon the long hair would play well with the beard.

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I'm not doing the play. I'm not doing the movie, Ethan, and if you are a cop then me, you and Meesh need to have another convo.

Which is when you guys acknowledge that you've been investigating me since, what, 2016?

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This isn't jail. It isn't 'being in' - this is essentially diversion, except again no charges were brought. Like, seriously, if charges were filed, then I deserved to know that rather than to be lied to.

You know, I'm not surprised the Greens are my allies - this is some Guantanamo bs.

How the hell was this the option? Wasn't the point that the $80,000 was supposed to clear the slate??

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I don't want to work with you on music, B.

I saw the sort of books you edit - I want to meet that lady, not the one who sings.

And I think you'd be a good editor for my book.

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I'd seen a few of the clips, but it was really chance that the whole Dogme thing came together.

Of course, Dakta was shepherding the brand, so he knew what style he wanted.

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Yes, I am sleepy, and tomorrow I'll be getting my pills. Good thing I had some of the PRN Quetiapine left.

I really wish that I didn't have to walk to the Countdown for my prescriptions, but the Willis St pharmacy has a surcharge.

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Look, until someone's in the bed with me, I'd really rather not get a lecture on how I get to sleep.

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I'm hopeful that the Dakumentary will result in the cops being put under the microscope, but re: my own treatment, I think again that an evidentiary hearing is the bare minimum that I'm entitled to.

I'd like to know who was involved, and how, and who authorised this. I wasn't given a fair trial; I wasn't even told what the charges were.

So far it's all been hints, while what I would like is all the things that should have happened. At the bare minimum, the cops should have interviewed me if they thought I was an inner circle member.

I'll be honest, I never thought I was *that* involved with the club, but I guess I was.

Gary and Dakta were great, so it all seemed natural and the club was mostly a positive vibe. Plus, y'know, my Dad died and we couldn't pay the mortgage...