Why don't I take MDMA?
- Amanda Riddell
- Oct 25, 2023
- 1 min read
Well, that's due to the bipolar. To me, MDMA just feels like mania, so that's more or less how I felt last week. While I find weed is genuinely part of my health plan. I think weed makes me more attentive to people, though I was sober when Lucinda visited. I reach out to people all the time, but few people write me back.🥝 - Despite saying that, I've totally had some great E trips, but the compound traumas from the bad trips with my brother outweigh the positives. While I'm fairly ok with my current setup re: weed. If I had a job, I'd buy medical weed.
I have less death anxiety on MDMA than during a manic or depressive episode, but otherwise it's quite a similar feeling.