Why do I isolate myself?

2020 was horrific for me. Despite the fun I had with my Election campaign, I had some really bad experiences and the streets felt scary to me. Though my shining hour was on Cuba St, I honestly avoided Cuba St. for a whole year after the drama with Sarah and Keaton. - Though the uni appear surprised, I've never been a regular fixture in that scene. Those people only ever write to me if they want something and, though they apparently sesh, only Jake was ever keen to smoke with me.

As I say, I respect Paul Wolframm a lot more than I respect my music teachers. I admire some of my former professors, but I don't particularly respect them. That's the punk attitude. While my Dak film is a testament to the style of film that Paul taught me and my brother how to make. 🥝 - While now, I'm isolating myself to edit the movie. It's a grueling process -- I've never made a series of this length before, and it's totally new to me.

For the film nerds: when I was making the assembly (which was the version with all my tunes), I was watching the film 12-16 hrs/day, so I could change bits around and then watch it twice. That worked well. This next stage is essentially the feedback stage, and that's difficult for me -- I'm trying to watch it with fresh eyes, which is hard after umpteen dozen views. I attempted to watch it tonight, but I got distracted by the pop-up ads after Ok Chloe.🤣 Hopefully the new cut of episode 2 suits her interests. - To the people who think NA or AA is the solution for me: I was drinking and smoking when I wrote most of my best material. That includes the song cycle, Pan's Preludes, and Call O' The Wind (which was DMT-inspired). My karaoke and jams aren't consistent, but that's because they're mostly sight-reads. That's what made it fun for me .. my working methods are constantly shifting, much like Stravinsky. I posted that stuff about Sondheim's drug use to prove my point. Yes, musicals people are much more bro-like than opera people... I'm sure all my peers smoke dope. 🤣 My life isn't like yours, straight rich people. I'm broke all the time, and the weed has seen me through some really hard times. My weed friends are the people who are there for me. To be brutally honest, you're the ones who kicked me out of your lives, and though I miss Jane and a few other people, I don't miss the culture of elite music. That shit is toxic. 👍