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"What would I want my friends and/or family to know about my anxiety?"

Writer: Amanda RiddellAmanda Riddell

Well, let's start with the whole bearded lady thing: that scarred me for life (regardless of how 'right' the townspeople thought their reactions were to the age-appropriate women I was chatting with. 🤬). The beard was worth growing, but yeah, I wouldn't have shaved it off if I didn't feel like I wasn't being treated differently with the beard vs. without. Even in 2023, it was obviously different. -

There's a guy in my building who resembles James Cain and Keaton. That pisses me off.

Riffing on that:

No, James Cain. No I refuse. You and your wife will NEVER get to work with me.


Because you peeped. That's why. I wasn't happy that anyone was peeping, and that includes Chloe. I may love her, but it violated my trust to have several hundred people spying on my every move.


That's why I keep avoiding Chloe, plus everyone else. That seems fair, to be honest; how would you lot feel if I'd put a hidden camera in your room and spied on you for years? 🐸 - So here's my message: fuck off if you think I owe you anything. No, I don't, and regardless of whether I won or I lost, I still get to make my own decisions about what I think I should do with my life. I gotta tell you: jail is preferable to acting for me. That's fair -- since I read Shadbolt's book, I'm way less afraid of jail. The ideal solution would be me getting the girl I want, and building my career with her, but otherwise it'll be me pivoting to journalism and documentaries because I get physically ill when I step on film sets after Portrait of a Knight. You people who spent all your time bitching about me and my brother and our behaviour weren't exactly lining up to fund our projects. So when I say my brother put me in the hospital while we made Portrait, I'm not lying. That's why ending up in the hospital again over the Tina script is so annoying. My interpretation is that I can't make fiction movies as a director, but I can still write them. While my non-fiction directing and producing skills are way better. I'm sort-of hopeful I can handle an animated film, but that's why I'm starting with the album and building up the movie from there. - The Tina script is not a documentary. Do not be fooled: that's not the same thing. - So, I would say James and Cass owe me an apology if they want me on their podcast.

That's what I'd like from VUW as well: a real acknowledgment that my post-grad year didn't go very well, and that I wish I could get that $10,000 back. - As for Barbara: hey, if you were willing to go 10 rounds about my white pants, then I was willing to troll you about your rich husband. All's fair in love and war. 🐸

 
 
 

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