What happened in Auckland?

Specifically, the question that my tormentors are asking, which is 'why did you reject our generous offer to let you be Tina - under our control - after that trip?' Because that was the first time that I'd left the Wellington region in several years, and I suddenly realised there was a big wide world out there full of people that didn't know me and didn't hate me.

I went there to consider living there, and after the second trip up north, I'd say that I was pretty much sold. - The shits that are trying to force me to stay have enough money to pay for trips and shit and that is because they are more privileged than me. My privilege is really simple: I'm bright and well-educated, and my father came from money. But I'm also deeply unusual, with a strange accent and strange mannerisms. - In Auckland Central, nobody said anything whatsoever about the clothes and nobody chucked in their reckons as I was walking past on the streets. The second visit, for Whakamana and Chloe's launch, was a bit more of a guided trip than the fun I had in the Big Smoke with all that RNZ moolah. The Big Smoke trip cost around $1000, and I'm honestly expecting some reimbursement if people are so passionate about the Dakumentary. - If the famous Kiwis really are trying to push me into being Tina, I'd like to point out that it's easy for Rose and Alice to live in London and enjoy my antics from afar, but that's hardly the same as actually supporting me. And Toa and Don probably would have been able to get a decent performance from me, but that's not a good reason to make a film. I'm not an actor, and I'm deeply uncomfortable with the idea that my crossdressing is considered the only marketable skill that I have, even though Wellington has been very rude about it IRL. After that trip, I simply realised that there are more important things in life, and that I wasn't going to be free either way: even if I made the film, the relentless surveillance would have continued regardless. I was fed up, so I rebelled. - And no, I won't do Tina in Auckland either. I'm writing my book, and that is the decision that I made. For Toa: buy it off me, cast a brown trannie or someone like Jordan Rivers who pulls off the clothes, and do it that way with rewrites for that particular cultural context because that's more interesting. I'd rather be Don, who gave up acting at roughly the same age as me, and wrote a bunch of great pop songs, film scores and (yes) musicals. That's something for the interview... I found out watching the Funny As with Fane Flaws that Don wrote stage musicals as well, but obviously I don't know squat about those as there's no videos.