to the mental health sector:

I told you in 2021 that I thought Chloe was trying to kill me, and Barbara too. I haven't been lying about the fact that I like them both; when I told that to Rob Ridley was the first month where my phone started fucking with me. So, why the hell weren't you listening then? I'm sure you all know about my private life, so again, why is it 2 years later that people are *suddenly* concerned?? Why wasn't this FTAC meeting in 2020, 2021 or 2022? I'm as insane now as I ever was. The only reason you're interested is because I'm attending Parliament regularly and the new PM thinks I'm a sick creep (and is uncomfortable with me sitting in his eyeline). That's mostly some bigotry about alternative lifestyles .. despite my un-PC statements, I'm very much for people living their truth. - I'm just one of those people who hears the gossip and isn't ashamed to share it. I miss Jacinda -- I got to make 15-minute rant tapes to her, and I gather she listened to them. I pulled way more wacky stunts in 2020 or 2022 than I have this year. This has been far more statesperson-like than my previous personae. I think Mr. Hipkins is clearly the ringleader of this whole investigation. Maybe he's not one of those self-deprecating Kiwis... 🧠 -

And, also, if I was a genuine threat: why was it that I avoided Barbara's gig, and also avoid Chloe at Parliament (even when I could talk to her)? Shipwrecked on Islands is opera no. 3 -- I lionize women .. I don't particularly want to fuck anyone. Here's the crux of it: I'm not hiding behind the show tunes defence, though again, I also didn't write the folk songs -- they're real tunes, and real lyrics that I faithfully sang. That's the literal truth, but as I say, I tend to pick a different person to sing each song to when I'm recording. So, it's ludicrously oversimplifying to say it's only about Chloe. No, it's about all my friends, and that's also true of the Dakumentary. It'd be a very odd film if it had no footage of Chloe -- she's *that* important to the drugs cause. My guess is that's why I got permission to use the clip of her alcohol bill, plus the many months of needling her.

- I'm not returning to the fold, Jane. And honestly I think they're about to fire you, despite the tragedy.

That's what I'm gleaning from the gossip.

I feel bad, but I'm not anyone's saviour. I was being funny with those St. Michael things.

It amused me. I realise other people aren't laughing, but I don't give a fuck. My friends are laughing, and that's the goal .. as Don said about the Front Lawn, I was often attempting to be serious, but the reaction was that it was comedy. - I've just gotten a job interview about a podcast producer role in Auckland. I'm genuine that I'm trying to move cities atm. I'm done with Wellington. The orgies are great, but that's so much film .. I've loved this city, but I think I want something else rather than to fall into a comfortable rut with people who grudgingly tolerate me due to feeling guilty that my life fell apart. I don't want pity. I'm qualified, I've got real work experience in editing and writing, plus a number of films that are seriously good -- I have real goals for my career that are realistic and aren't about a faux-community of people who honestly want to exploit me for a pay cheque. If the projected Tina show they're desperate for me to agree to wasn't a $1 million project, absolutely none of them would be involved. That's what I've gathered from the 5 years that I've been making the Dakumentary sans their help. I genuinely believe I could make Shipwrecked on Islands for $1 million if it's animated. - Calling out the people who identify with the real activists when they watch the Dakumentary because they think I'm 'special': Well, you may wish you were there, but I never saw any of you at the club. This is seriously annoying for me: I wasn't even there when the just jazz film was shot, but that pianist is a real guy who is also trans. I met them at Gender Minorities Aotearoa on two occasions. Rainbow Green lol.

Even Michelle Cameron only made two of those films. Most of those are just me and the activists that were willing to put their arse on the line for the plant and for their dealer/grower buddies. -

As for the nitty-gritty about my penis .. I edge, but honestly I have no idea why I'm finding it difficult to get all my urine out when I piss. But I'm not particularly embarrassed. Shit happens, and a few drops of pee aren't a big deal .. I'm sure every guy can relate to that. I'm not really that fussed by what people think of my hygiene or my manners. It's my brain they want .. that's what Jake used to say to me. 🧠 Re: the elephant in the room, here's me flipping the whole 'pictures or it didn't happen' mentality that ruined my transition on those who seek to destroy me: if you haven't photographed my dick, then it's hearsay. - I've already said all this shit dozens of times. I'm slightly more lucid than usual, and my Mum reckons that's due to my sleep cycle improving without the night shifts.

I'm not a streaker and I'm really, really sick of discussing my dick. It's so tawdry. If people were as blunt as I am, this wouldn't have been an issue.