The chicken or the egg?

Re: which came first - my crossdressing or my masturbating?

The crossdressing came first. I often got off to it as a teenager, but that wasn't the only reason.

I liked Saturdays, as nobody else was at home, so I could wear those clothes for hours.

So, not a fetishist. I'm insulted by that: I'm bipolar, and libido is a symptom of mania.

I also wank when I'm depressed: it's a routine that I use to calm myself.