real chat 22.4.2023

it's nice that you put up with my insanity. 😎 -

Honestly, I'm not sure why I'm so unable to commit.

I'm having second thoughts about my beard. It feels too heavy already. -

I think I need to chuck out the sweat pants. They're definitely tainted.

Wearing pants pisses me off. Well, the sweats but yes the jeans too.

It was fine for 2021, but re: fashion I'm aiming to push more fem each year.

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I hope the podcast was fascinating for you. You sounded relaxed on the radio.

It really ticks me off that all my questions are largely rhetorical.

Chloe does answer some of them, but I'd love to get her on tape for an hour of ramble to understand her better.

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As for free hugs -- no, I'm not into that.

I'm not exactly looking forward to Parliament on May 2, but I'll be there.

I probably won't have the junk guitar yet, though. But Mum's onto that.

-- I'm very glad my Mum chose me over the family. It wasn't easy for her to move here, but she felt it was the right move for her and for us (me and Stephen).

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This idea of us as me and Chloe is still really weird, despite all the movies. Yeah, I can see why you think this is trauma. 😅😥

But hey, when I really wrote, I tried the emails. I bet you read them, and I totally think it was the right way to include you; I sent her a series of emails to show her the work-in-progress, rather than just one message, starting with the Chloefilm, but regularly updating her for several months.

When she solved my little space puzzle last year, I started taking Chloe's film ideas seriously. - Yes, I should get Twitter, but honestly I prefer to use the news media to keep track of the politics tea leaves. Though it's surreal to read them as a journalist rather than as an activist.

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Love isn't inherently sexual. That's what I think I captured well with the Tina script and the Plaything. 😀

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Why are you so obsessed with the marriage thing?

That's what baffles me... is it a Jewish thing?

I get why the credits are important for you (she paused my acid trip to reinforce that), but it's a rough cut.

Tbh I think people realise you wrote your speech. I doubt people think I created that scene. It's obviously real, but I made it better. And I wouldn't have done that if she hadn't twisted my arm.

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That's why I thought your whole 'take me like a man' thing was bullshit. You've been dominating me for years. 🤐

As for whether my brother is permanently brain damaged from the accident -- I dunno.

I think it's surprising that people thought I told him to jump.

It wasn't anything like that. I wish I'd been able to stop him. -

I wish I was more normal, but we wouldn't have come this far if I was.

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The last half hour of that 80-minute podcast tape has my brainy side. I'm clever, but honestly as a director that's not the key thing.

It's communication. And I think Chloe is a great communicator.

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You're having a really shitty year too, aren't you?

I mean, two motions defeated within a week or so (the alcohol bill and the greyhound racing). That must have sucked.

And I realise we haven't talked about the crybaby thing. That's the sort of thing you'd have to share with me if this is going to work.

I don't need to know everything about your work life, but yeah, if you want to vent then I can listen. I'd rather not deal you weed, though -- I think it's the mark of a good sesh that both people can suss their own. 👍