re: my wanking
- Amanda Riddell
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- Aug 26, 2023
- 1 min read
I think it's therapeutic when I'm manic - it keeps me from being violent. But yes, I do get quite compulsive about it, and I'm very aware of that. I also think when I pivoted from watching porn to producing porn that my relationship to my spank material improved. So, yes, look me up on DeviantArt and wank to me if you feel. - When I'm in the sort of mood I'm currently in, it doesn't feel that important. My pills are working well right now, and it seems like the dosage is mostly effective. I took a Zopiclone last night, and I try not to take those two nights in a row. - I'm in quite a good mood. I'd say this is what euthymia feels like - 6/10.
As for my tapes... I think that I sounded like a crazy person walking around town, but who would believe anything I said? 🤣 My view: I used snatches of dialogue people said as they walked past me as part of my soap opera, so that's just part of city life imo. And obviously nobody believed me, or I'd be in court. I think my track record speaks for itself: I vent a lot about potentially hurting people, but I'm not violent myself... I might throw things around, but that's just me in my room. I keep to myself when I'm not doing well. That's my coping strategy.