planning for my future

My plan for my thirties is to make up for all that time in my twenties where I wasn't able to make the most of life.

not really planning for a large social circle, though. I'm still a loner, and that's core to my being. I'm still not ready to marry anyone.

I love Michelle C, but I couldn't be together with her. I can't forgive myself for how I treated her. I feel terrible, and that's why I never believe her when she says she wasn't that aggrieved.

I just find Meesh really hard to trust. That wasn't true before I came out to her, but since then that secret poisoned our relationship.

While I figure Lauren and B are much older and probably really liked spying on me while they were overseas. 🤣

I'm fine with people thinking Gary and I are together. I'm all good with that, and that's why I love him is that he's all good with that too.

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One of the things that reading all the sex work books encouraged me to do was to think of myself as single but into sex. Though this is my way of sex, I'm into it.

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I'm willing to consider a BDSM relationship, but yeah... I'm keen to write a contract.

It's not a very sexy thing... me and touch is a minefield I'd recommend any girlfriends are very cautious about. Currently for me, it's important to feel like my body is impregnable, and that's where I'm feeling from.

If it's important to you, we can hold hands.

You can kiss me, but I might not kiss you back. I'm totally new to all that. I reckon my outrageously weird sexuality is why people reckon I should be a rockstar. But my thing is that I want a real job... that's my goal is to become respected regardless of my fashion.

The fashion is me the punk; my ideas are me the intellectual.