On Weed (part 2)

So, you've had tons of fun spying on me, right. But for me, I've become Omar. 🐸

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I'm not interested in making any theatre or movies. I think it'll take the whole winter to finish the Dak film, and then my summer is about the Shipwrecked album.

I think the EP is something that I could use to support a CNZ application.

I don't want some grant gopher writing my proposal, though. If I'm begging for money, I prefer to do that myself.

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I much prefer to use my own money. And that allows me to do nonsensical things like drop the Tina show just when people wanted to make it.

Again, I think that saga showed that most of the film crew people and actors knew me through Stephen (my bro), so few of them really 'got' me.

While the Shipwrecked album is totally something that I think people are keen to play/sing. I've got my ideal cast in my head, but I haven't really started tracking people down. I asked Phillip about Barry. He wasn't keen. Ingrid responded to my friend request, so that's positive. 👍

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I don't care how much people think I should be their best friend. If wishes made things true, I'd have married one of the girls.

See -- I don't mind that people laugh with/at me on screen. But live, I prefer the cocktail thing to all the stuff that pays well.

Money doesn't motivate my creative decisions. It's just the thing that annoys me when I'm scheming. 👍

I wish I had infinite money with no strings attached, but honestly I've only got $60,000 or so from the trust, and $30,000 in my Kiwisaver if I could figure out how to access that.

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I'm not interested in being a star. And that's what I learned making the Big Smoke.

It's clever, but it's not an audition, and I realised that I hated making the monologue parts.

Chloe is very adept at selfies and to-camera speeches. That's not my bag. -

And people totally misinterpret that I admire her to thinking I identify with her.

No, I didn't intend those jazz tunes to be 'her' voice -- I think that's something she or others prefer to hear rather than the truth. My NZ accent has been controversial: that's how I see the debates about my voice.

But for me, that suggests how ingrained it is for most NZ singers to sing non-native accents.

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While I absolutely refuse to master American accents after spending years on Aussie and NZ.

I'd rather that my musicals sound foreign to the US and UK audience.

When I was younger, I thought I'd leave NZ, but I was committed to staying here well before Covid.

I think 2016 or 2017 was when I decided I'd rather hone my craft here than travel. -

So that was years ago. And no, I'm not going back to being a guy. No way.

I'm not ditching the dresses or skirts, and I don't plan to add makeup or extensions or wigs. I think my natural hair still looks pretty good.

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Again, not a drag queen. And I'm not impersonating Chloe: I'm just a singer that she likes.

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But yeah, I'm not interested in Wellington's opinions about my sexuality. I think my sexual life is way healthier than all the closet case trannies (or crossdreamers for those who are clued-up) .. I live my fantasy, and my fantasy was to be a fafa. The clothes are simply me expressing the femme thing that people have told me I was all my life.

I like my photos of myself, but I usually climax to art or narratives. My Deep Dreams are fun to wank to: that was why I made some of the AI art.

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Painted nails, I've thought about. I can't paint Paddy until I get a new laptop.

That segment is good, but it's tricky to slot into Episode III or V, which is where I thought I'd slot it in. -

It's a two-part thing like the 80s one. I tried to dl a torrent of On Weed Part 2, but there weren't any seeds and the ThreeNow stream is difficult to pirate. I used screen capture software to make Chloefilm, though I found out later that I could have downloaded the raw file from Vimeo. Parliament has been very accommodating, which is great. 👍