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Nope, it's not possible

  • Writer: Amanda Riddell
    Amanda Riddell
  • May 24
  • 2 min read

Asking me to perform Tina = no. I refuse to 'compromise' by being 'allowed' to reside on VUW's campus. No, Emily, I will always refuse. VUW isn't allowed to control me because of what occurred in 2022-today. The use of pornographic material to control me was illegal, and does amount to a form of conversion practice.

Everyone that tried to use Deviant Art to force a detransition has to stop, apologise and accept a share of blame for my mental health episodes in the preceding years. I refuse to share my gifts with transphobes, and VUW has proven to be transphobic. They have lost this war, and now they must legally allow me to refuse. - I refuse to study further. I refuse to sing out loud. You don't get to share in my talents. You get to accept my refusal to give a concert. No special concert evening. No MA in 2026. No PhD in 2028. VUW ceases to harass me; Weeded Out is (correctly) labelled as my property, as is Pan's Preludes. You cannot ask me to return. I will not 'warm' to you. I will not tolerate your bigotry. VUW must legally cease or I will make them. - Perhaps they should've signed a valid contract with me? Perhaps they should've met me in person? - While a small gaggle of arseholes pretends to understand me, I will be mocked. I don't want to reside or study in Wellington. Michelle must accept her failure to persuade me to be Tina. VUW must cease asking me to return because I will only ever refuse. I don't want to start swimming again. I didn't refuse to be Tina because of dysphoria. I refused because I didn't like the tenor of your rewrites. You wish to ogle me, James and Cassandra. You see me as a sexual object, and that is plain from your online actions. James and Cass are banned from working with me. That is all you wish: to ogle me, to turn me and to win your approval from the overseas critics on the back of my talents. - You wanted Mj Rodriguez, and I am not her. You want a brown queen. My films are already available, and very compelling. I refuse to 'expand' - Steve Barr has to legally accept that sole credit was the outcome, and that is why he loses any production rights that may have been incorrectly granted. - I refuse to take 'mandatory singing lessons' - as we can see, I'm the one that should be giving lessons, not the one taking them. People need to accept me as part of the broader Wellington community, not as a special freak that VUW allows people to watch to earn international rankings. Ask me to teach you via my opera. Allow me to be paid for my writing. Allow me to demand apologies and compensation. Allow me the social equity that my political party is attempting to promise.

 
 
 

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