My words are my weapons

So, despite the violent movie that I wrote, my real philosophy is that the pen is mightier. And also when you're a bitch like me, the way that you say words can cut too. When people tell me to behave like a bloke, I basically ignore them, but if they get in my business, then I get venal. - I realise that Barbie has quite a nice career with the Air Force Band, and a few of my mates from school are in those bands too, but I can't abide working with the military. When I found out that joining those bands meant becoming an active member of our armed services, I stopped looking at those gigs. I strongly believe in anti-war things, and that's not just a fashionable pose, but my model for a conscientious objector was Benjamin Britten or my grandad Adrian (who was a nurse). Then I saw Sedition. That's a seminal influence on the Dakumentary. Despite the level of surveillance my druggie lifestyle entails, I admit that I'm somewhat more afraid of the anti-war stigma. Like, as I say, that's another level again of theoretical interest. - I consider my current thing to be public intellectualism masquerading as activism, so obviously I discovered from sticking my head above the parapet in 2020 that people were likely to have opinions about my private life. It's quite strange being involved with rainbow activism again after spending most of the last several years working on drug law reform. I've never been overly fond of the politicking within the queer community, but compared to the total lack of organisation that the stoners have, it's definitely a group that mobilises strongly. On the other hand, I'm also trying to position this gender identity and expression idea as something which doubles as a freedom of expression argument, to rub salt into the wound of all those anti-trans libertarians. - I think that my masochism helps me with finding motivation, but it's certainly not a sexuality that I feel entirely like I'm able to fully express in the violence-tinged climate of today. Like, not all kinds of pain are pleasurable. That's the level of involved discussion that I feel is required before I'd consent to sex. One thing that I've discovered is quite common in my generation is that people get off to roleplays of non-consensual sex. My tastes don't run in that direction - to me, the masochistic relationship and the sexual relationship are entirely separate. Maybe I'm old-fashioned, but I think that sex should be making love. That stuff Alison says about The Void - those are my ideas. Btw I wasn't intending to reference Allison, my real stoner friend. 🤣 - The Ill-Made Knight is a reference to Lancelot in T.H. White's The Once and Future King. My brother read all of those, but I only read The Ill-Made Knight. The story goes in the book that Lancelot was really strong and fast because he trained with extra weights, and then White analogises him to Don Bradman (for real). But he was really ugly. Despite this, he has a child with one woman, and then there's the iconic affair with Guenever (that's how it was spelled in my book). My brother has the obsession with knights. He's read Don Quixote as well, and still has the Reginald costume in his office. I brought the romance, as my brother leans toward an asexual/aromantic orientation.