My position - it's realistic.

Look, I don't know Hans. This is the fundamental issue: Stephen knew all the film people, and he deliberately kept it that way.

So, although I may have a good idea, I really don't want a repeat of that, which is what would happen if a famous person took my script. -

I don't want 'character actors' who I've never met filling in the parts. I don't want famous people involved because those people aren't involved in my real life.

And I don't want anyone from Red Scare or VUW. It's a blunt refusal. I don't trust those people, and hence I don't feel comfortable. -

For NZSM: I don't want to take any composition papers. I don't want to enrol. I don't want to be composer-in-residence.

I just don't. I want my independence, and frankly that's something both Don and Sir Peter can probably relate to. And if you disapprove of my trannie side and my pot-smoking, then I'll never change my mind. I love doing those things so much more than attending uni, which was mostly a drag (yes, drag because I was playing straight lol). If you want to talk to me, invite me to shit that isn't on the campus, or maybe try something new and write Amanda a letter. 🪶

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What I really need is some high-quality therapy. That's not what the shows of any stripe are.

No, they're not. I need the real kind. And hopefully by February I'll get some.

But yeah, that's my point: people are so obsessed with what I *might* be able to do with them via my show, and have no interest in my real problems. 👍

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I have nothing to say to you, Salina. That's why you should write me back.

I'm not interested in your works for the most part: I'm genuinely disinterested in contemporary classical.

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My ads aren't 'new music' -- that's what I really mean. I think new music is a crock of shit funded by the CIA.

Which is true.

All that twelve-tone bs was what the US thought made them better than Russia. That's so silly.

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So how about this: write me an offer to produce, or buzz off? I'm not changing my mind.