More rambles

Well, I've got until Tuesday to make my case to the politicians that I should be allowed to attend Question Time, so let's keep going, shall we? - Yes, I went up to Auckland. But for real, I was expecting to meet Patria, and that's what motivated me. Though I wondered if I'd bump into Chloe, I wasn't heartbroken that she was busy. That's more or less all my female friends... though it gets mighty annoying to always be second-place to their job or their partner. For example, Amber and I are quite close, but every time she's with a guy it's like I'm yesterdays news. 🤣 -

Yeah, when I was up north, I wasn't really sure what the vibe was.

I wish I'd seen Māngere or some of South Auckland, but it was sorta freaky to be in another city.

As I say, I barely leave Wellington. Chloe's line about K Road struck a chord with me when I first saw that documentary. 👍

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I wonder how Gary's vetting process went... probably smoother than mine.

But yeah, these last 9 months or so where the fuzz have been obviously interrogating me have been very annoying. - This is what goes on behind closed doors -- this is 2+ years of virtual sex .. presumably with a number of people .. I am a pornographer after all:

I got high, then you started with the sadism again.

I should have reached for the safe word. Yes, I came up with one: Sieg heil. 🤣 -

But yeah... to be honest, our relationship has been largely you lot torturing me.

I think of Chloe as a dark, crazy person because that's the vibe that she projects IRL, and if she's been following along and messing with me, that sorta proves it. Atm, she's dressing in black a lot and has painted nails. That's very goth. -

I mean, it's obvious that people have been monkeying with my internet feeds since 2021. I remember when my phone journal started to have a mind of its own... 🧠 I'm sure many activists can relate, and probably have had similar struggles with the authorities. If I'd been a pussy and kept smoking weed privately, this would have never happened; this was the price I paid for sticking my neck out and taking a stand...

The Election 2020 dramas were totally unintentional. I mean, how bizarre was it that both me and my identical twin had namesakes who were affiliated with the National Party? To paraphrase Slings and Arrows (a Canadian TV show): life is fucking nuts sometimes. 🤣

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As for dysphoria: I don't think cutting it off is a good idea.

That's just people's discomfort. As I said, I see my dick as female.

My gender orientation is ambiguous. That's what non-binary is supposed to mean, not straight girls with punk haircuts.

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I think I've been starving myself the last few days.

Perhaps unintentionally, but I've definitely skipped a few meals.

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Ok, Chloe: how long do you spend in the shower each day?

That's a bougie affectation. I bet your vegan food is expensive too. 👋

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Jane, if I'd wanted to pursue a career as a virtuoso, I'd have done that.

I'm not really interested. I'm a composer who plays well, and I'm taking a stand on this whole classical culture thing about the cult of the virtuoso. I'm good, but Rameka, Chris and Mike all have technical skills that I'm less proficient in than them. I'm just really fast and have Jane's legato. I asked Nick because his style is v. similar, and he's a demon with the scales too. -

Stop telling me to 'think like a guy', barbie - if you're reading.

I'm not a guy. I never was. That's what you like about me.

I'm thinking like me. I'm angry, and I'm articulate.

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As for Michelle -- no, I'm not really interested in being your friend.

As I say, I'm jealous you picked the guy and I'm angry that your life is going better than mine.

I'm like that: I'm not a nice person.👋