More on Amanda vs. the establishment

No live gigs because you refuse to let me be Amanda 24/7. That is the message that Wellington sent to me; hence, I've refused to share my gifts. I am legally entitled to my freedom of expression, and that includes my gender. -

That is fair and reasonable. I get to refuse because they're trying to coerce me and guilt trip me and shame me, but they can't persuade me to licence my IP to them.

I'm only ever going to say no. It's time to accept that your offers were rejected, Wellington dickheads that I complained about in the Big Smoke.

I rejected your offers, and I made a 30-minute film during my vacation to address the transphobic stereotypes that you lot were putting in my head and threatening me with ... the Big Smoke was my reaction to being told that some people wanted to arrest me. Good thing I had real answers to their insulting, bigoted questions. -

It's not my fault you're all poor now: welcome to my world! 👋🏻 I've been poor for something like 8 of the last 10 years.

Every 'some days you're Barbra' Every 'some tim' Every 'you know what that means' ... those were things that were said to try and force me to detransition, based on the stereotype that transvestites are fetishists (that seriously isn't true 🏳️‍⚧️).

Those = no gig for NZSM or NZSO, and my absolute right as a journalist to ask those people hard questions and to expect real answers, rather than an attempt to bribe me. Please read Lost Girls, then give up on telling me that I'm a pervert or a fetishist: cis women view themselves as the object of desire when they wank, and so do I. -

That is fair and that is reasonable. If they're not willing to respect my identity, despite everyone thinking that I was an effeminate fairy, then they don't get to use my body, my voice or my texts/scores for their own purposes (ie profitability). -

They're not begging me to play because they think I'm a great musician. They're begging me to play because I'm famous and they think that Pan is a total fluke.

This is literally how it feels to be Gershwin. Unlike him, though, I refuse to perform for those bigots because Gershwin didn't grow up with realistic MIDI. 🤣

They see me as a cash cow; nothing more, nothing less. I refuse to fill their coffers, and I hope those in positions of institutional power in art music reflect on how telling me that 'nothing happened' when I clearly felt something hard pushing against me regarding Jake was a classic reaction by the blinkered institutions to a MeToo moment.