Letter to CS

I guess your plan is to ditch politics and make movies with me.

Which yeah, with the team Chloe infrastructure plus my weird avant-garde art friends could be a powderkeg.

As for kids - I get that you're keen. I really don't know myself yet.

I think I've spent too long fighting this war to be allowed around kids to know if I want to raise any.

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On that front: yeah, I don't really want to housesit for Remy. I know the script seems like I would, but honestly it's a script.

Tina's the me I could have been, but Amanda's the me who is. I find little kids are mostly annoying if they're not blood relations.

Around about 6 is when I think kids get interesting. But yeah, then I'd be the stereotypical dad who only gets involved once the kids are smart.

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That's why the lunch thing is a big deal - I'd rather have grownup conversations where I tell R18 stories about drugs.

The tape, I think, is more of an M rating - occasionally I'm really crude, but it's mostly stuff anyone would say.

I think it's ultimately just words, and that's why a lower rating. I think it's ridiculous that you can't swear on RNZ.

Yeah, that's a rule still... 🤨

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As for rating POAK: yeah, I'm really surprised that people think it's an R.

I guess it's one of those gays vs. straights things.

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Confidence in myself... I think that's a funny one with me

I'm supremely confident in things like pulling off a movie, but yeah with girls I'm useless.

And it's not so much the need for affirmation as the reminder that there really is someone out there for me that keeps me playing the game.

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I don't generally mean you, B, when I'm referring to art music world. 😀

But you know, you were in Dubai, so I thought of you as separate to all that scandal.

As for the scandal re: you - we can have it out if you like.

I don't see them as lies - I mean, once I was speaking as a character, I thought it was pretty clear what I was doing wasn't about reality.

There is real stuff in the mix too, particularly more recently, but this is why I used the pseudonym after seeing the first round baffle people. This is really just an epic set of reckons, and any 'newsiness' is coincidental.

I'm pissed off about this dick kerfuffle. As I say, I was wearing pants; partially translucent, but pants.

And they look great on the film. 😎

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My attitude about 2020: someone was definitely speaking to me, and once I was fairly sure Jacinda and the cops were watching, that's when I took it in

my direction with the ridiculous assertions.

I thought the ALL CAPS thing would make it all seem more ridiculous, but also as I typed, I like Film Crit Hulk. You know, my mates and the cause were more or less behind me, so it's just the straights who got a shock. 😅 -

Training my brain to do this was no easy feat. I started in 2018 (see my notes in my Gmail account under PEBBIE), and that's why when I exploded in 2019 it was so slick.

Isentia was also a great training ground - that chat was where I first started riffing on the news. -

The 7-day 24/7 stunt was ultimately effective, I felt. And that's why I repeated it, and then turned it into this glorified cam show. The gimmick being that nobody actually gets to see me lol - except the spies. I mean, none of the repetitions have involved a week without sleep. That was a one-off, and honestly the most surreal thing I've ever done: it was like living in a time-lapse, watching the sun drift by (while getting high), and the nights were nightmarish .. instead of nightmares, I had these horrible daydreams which kept me from sleeping. Since I got diagnosed, my sleep's been ok.

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I'm glad you didn't contest the leadership, Chloe. Very surprised that you listened to me. 🤪

But yeah, I really think you have PM energy about you.