re: Jane -- no, I was angry at her well before the accident .. I felt like she only wanted me around when it came time to video things, and that pissed me off. Currently, I'm fuming every moment of every day about the NZSM and their attempts to control me.
That's why I'm crabby and refusing to sing... I reckon tons of them think 'oh, well now that Amanda's good, that makes up for when she sucked and walked around singing a lot' 🤬 1. I was far from the only student doing that. Loads of them were, and I remember hearing Eugene the jazz singer scatting around town too. I'd been singing a lot since high school, and nobody thought it was weird then... It's only the uni that were dicks, though they (as always) lacked the gumption to say any of that to my face. 2. I was very clear that I was into musicals, and that's why I went to uni, which is why I was so disappointed to be shafted by the professors. I'm relishing their impending doom, even though that's not very Christian of me. 🤣 I'm not btws -- dyed-in-the-wool athiest.👍 3. You all hated me. I know it, you know it, so let's not lie and pretend.... if I wasn't seriously talented and hadn't written a bunch of pieces that openly critiqued you, this wouldn't be a discussion (and this isn't one, I might add...).
Why was it that nobody bothered to teach me to sing? That's probably due to being generally in tune, and that's why I'm pretty fucking angry at an institution who couldn't tell me and my brother apart.
He had a beard... it was honestly shocking that so few of the students or teachers could tell the difference. That was a recurring theme for the first 2 years of uni for both of us, and it was hella irritating.
I've spent most of my adult life with Stephen or Jane controlling me, or the cops attempting to. 🤣
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So yeah, I have zero plans to sing for that crowd, but the jazz singer thing would probably be fun for a gig or two... I dunno if I'd make a career out of that.
I genuinely don't think there's any money in the music biz anymore... Ingrid's genuinely successful, and was still on the dole when running the open mic.
This is why I have a bug up my arse about theatre and the chosen few. It's the same bugbear I have about the NZSO: It's elitism writ large.
I can smell that on the NZSM and Red Scare. That elitism is why I'm skipping town: Auckland may be crass and commercial, but it's more honest than Welly. 👍
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Meesh, it wasn't the weed which was the problem: it was your fucking indecisiveness and all the bloody mixed signals.
Stephen agrees with me about that. You were totally into the idea of one of us, but ultimately you made another decision, even though I reckon your boyfriend is as much of a shit as either of us were.
That's some brutal honesty.
Aside from Jane, all my favourite professors are long gone. 🤣 NZSM was a great school when Massey and Vic were investing and there were 2 campuses, but from what I've gleaned (entirely on the outside), it's been falling apart since 2015 or 2016.