brain droppings 04.05.2023

See - that's my brain. I'm still in battle mode. That's because I don't feel like the battle is over quite yet.

I'm a very cautious person. And yeah, I think I've shown there's nothing wrong with being Batman the pot activist.

It's just not something most people would do.

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I don't want to be pampered. I'm serious. Love-bombing is a major turnoff for me.

That's why I haven't reciprocated. I'm not a nice person; what I want when I lose my mind is a quiet place to lick my wounds and do what I feel is needed. -

I'm not a very romantic person. I'm far busier with ensuring my music sounds the way I want than with that shit.

I love party guitar, but honestly this whole pop star thing has mostly sucked and I haven't particularly enjoyed it.

That's why I point to the activism .. and, to be fair, if I wasn't an activist I wouldn't have made half of the videos that people dug. -

Trying to write to a broad audience while fairly sure nobody is reading is a strange thing to do. It's not a delusion.. the click on the other end is very real.

But my little corner of the world is very small. That's why I've been afraid of all this Chloe stuff since 2021.

I was flattered that she liked me, but yeah it was a surreal vibe. I'd probably have watched the same movies regardless, or at least gone on the epic movie binge regardless. 🐸

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Re: 2023.

For me, the dogs protest made me feel awkward, though I thought the footage was good.

It felt too perfect. That's my problem: pussy on the pedestal.

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I take it you're reading other shit while I'm scheming up the blog posts.

So yeah, there's probably someone who is watching my feed 24/7, but there's also people getting selected parts of the feed.

That's my guess, anyway.

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I like you because you're angry, Chloe.

I'm much more comfortable with someone like that.

B, though... I get the sense she'd consume me if I ever caught her bad side.

She's too much woman for me. -

I wish you weren't angry at me, but hey, I get it.

And it's cool that I'm still able to come to Parliament.

My defense: if you're a fan, are you really that surprised that I'm kinky? - I mean, my script pretty much spelled it out for anyone who was curious. 🤣 Like everything in my life, I don't hide my sexual side. I hate being called a sissy, though yes I'm a submissive crossdresser (who identifies as trans). And she seems like the kind of woman who's into that; clearly butch. 👋