being different

After seeing that Māhū film a few days ago, I've been thinking about myself and how others see me. I'm rather annoyed that people were fine with me as 'the gay kid' but seem to be significantly more challenged by the transvestite adult. To me, that suggests that they still see us as the entertainment and we're not allowed to have opinions that are negative or critical of the status quo. Hence, AMPP to express my opinions, and my refusal to do any gigs to punish them for that stereotyped thinking. However, I never said that I wasn't going to play music: I like playing on the Parliament Grounds, but I'm not a star and the Dakumentary is a rare exception to that, which is mostly effective due to the DIY vibe. I don't want to polish myself or improve myself as an entertainer: I'm fine with making mistakes, and I deliberately cultivated that as part of my shtick, as I felt that it would make me more relatable. - I'll never think that doing Tina would make me more relatable. No, you all bitched and moaned when I wrote that script; now you're changing your tune because my other script is even scarier to the powers-that-be, and the audience that is used to action movies happening in the US rather than here. It's a darker idea than Goodbye Pork Pie, but that's the basic buzz of Shipwrecked, and I think that's something that people could and should think is a better film and a better piece of political commentary. Telling me I'm only interesting because I'm trans is like telling a woman that they only got hired for their tits. So, yeah, think about that, cis women. - I've got lots of good ideas, and my book intends to collect all of them; that's the format that I've chosen to discuss the trans thing, and I think that should be considered an equally valid form of expression as opposed to doing a Tim Minchin-style thing. I hate being on stage, though I like playing music. That's true of lots of people, and that's why I majored in composition rather than guitar.