another rant

What? Coke is weaker than coffee and that's why I like it, plus the carbonated water. -

All I want is to be able to chill and watch TV without this pressure about live work.

Yes, I'm good, but nobody has offered me a gig.

That's the real situation; not a single offer, not a single conversation, just flash cards. -

So now those who saw me speaking to the camera in my room will accept that was the final word on the subject.

It was a really clear and well-argued plea. Every time I go crazy, B, it's the pressure you're putting on me to do live gigs.

I fucking hate performing, and this thing in my room was the compromise I thought of to allow me to demo how the sound is supposed to sound. -

TVNZ will accept that that plea was my final word on the subject. They can't buy my script and they will cease.

Buy the Dakumentary, and accept the Tina story isn't for sale.

I'm publishing a book, then you can negotiate for those rights. -

I don't want to develop; didn't you watch my Big Smoke film - I'm sick of playing guitar! 🤬

The play won't fix me. That's what actors think - I'm not an actor.

I'm a person and I want a real life, not a fucking screen life.

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No tucking, no discussion of my dick other than bluntness in the future. Bulges aren't illegal, and that is why the Wellington people will back off about my bulge. As for my tapes - hey, I see plenty of people making those and holding their phones in the same stance I use. I got the idea from a Stuff article about a local poet. I'm an angry person. So what? Anger is healthy imo. - If I wasn't a drug kingpin (as if lol), then all this harassment about my dick wouldn't have happened. That's why I'm really fucked off with the cops and willing to call them Nazis. -

There is no way to persuade me; it's not that I don't care - that's why I was willing to let you buy the script. Everyone could still have the show they want, but I don't want it, and it's my call to make.

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I can't sleep with headphones on. That's why those ASMR rain sounds don't work.

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I don't care what the residents of my neighbourhood think. I feel bad about the person beside me, but that's it.

And if you don't want me to act like a nutcase, then cease with the Tina bullshit.

I've made a really cogent argument about why I'm not doing that.

There is no way to persuade me, and this attempt is yet another case of you lot driving me mad, then saying it's my fault that you're spying on me and trying to manipulate me.

There is no way to persuade me. It has to end with me not playing Tina. -

And it also ends with everyone acknowledging that spying on me was utterly and truly wrong.

It hasn't helped me. I think it's obvious that I'm as fucked-up now as I was in 2020.

And now I'm not interested in any work-release program. I'm saying no, and I own the IP.

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What? Apologise to the NZSM?? Hell no - They are lurking on my feed, and they did exploit me when I was a young filmmaker.

They're still trying to. 👎 -

Why am I not eating? Because I looked fat on my videos.

So yeah -- again, Salina can never fix that. That's the fault of my high school class.

For real. They know that now, and I had to get that off my chest. Regardless of what they thought of me, telling me to slim down was really wrong. -

Nope, never. No stage work. No gigs. No.

I will never work with the NZSM. It's time for Jane and others to acknowledge that I wrote a cool piece and they're just trying to cash in on my (apparent) fame from the weed cause, which they were all very negative about. -

My views aren't transphobic. They're actually positive - I'm saying other people can take hormones but I don't want to.

That's fair. And the lingo is why the trans debate sucks -- that's a fair thing, and Third Sex is thousands of years old, while transgender was invented in the 1990's. I find the past of third gender people fascinating, but I think the US gay scene has way too much influence on the global debate. A tidbit: the UK has the largest recorded trans population per capita on the planet (pretty sure - factcheck that, fellow activists), so that's probs why all the anti-trans people are quite vocal. -

No songs, no practice, no animations until these attempts to force me onto the stage or screen END.

I don't want to break in as an actor. NEVER. Let me pursue writing and let me say NO.

I can't go on without people acknowledging that I have said no. - As for Dak Headroom:

I had a street performer's license, and Dakta was running the stream. I painted it over so that the faces would be blurred, allowing us to use the footage.

And if the cops were pissed, then why isn't Gary in jail for the dozens of Dak Headroom stunts he did over that period? Or on his drug driving charges? -

I don't plan to sue the uni. I do expect VUW and TVNZ and anyone else to back off.

That's me saying that I gave them the opportunity to buy my script, they refused, and now there's no offer.

And I'm happy. Well, happier. 🤣

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I have hated going insane. It's not fun.

But insane people still have rights; at least, unlike my brother, I don't have 6 cops tackling me out of a tree.

That really happened to him. He's the one who the cops have chased up and down Te-Ika-A-Maui, and I can't be responsible for how he interprets my posts.

I don't need to prove anything: the Dak film is a vindication of all the hard yards I put in while the lot of you were laughing behind my back and mocking my stutter. 😤