Now, these could just be intrusive thoughts that the youtube feed prompts, but I strongly suspect that something else is going on. No, not tucking doesn't make me a ho.
My mental health professionals have literally never mentioned that.
That means you are simply bigots.
That means you are simply wrong.
that means no deal, VUW, only no.
Never singing Being Alive again.
Never singing anything for you, bigots.
Not performing today, bigots.
only no.
No tucking, no hiding, only no.
Will not finish 'ed'.
No rewrites, it's already finished.
You haven't paid, so no rewrites.
only no.
Always no.
No, Sean wasn't Jake.
Jake cannot say that as it wasn't true.
No deal, no series, no VUW only no,
always no
Always Amanda always she always trans.
Only no to any other ideas.
no tucking, no compromise, only no.
This is why I do not go to the campus.
only no, and also no guitar society.
only no.
Paddy, I do not trust you.
I do not trust anyone.
Except my Mum.
And, surprisingly, my mental health team.
Camilla is reasonable, and only nate, owen, = no only no always no.
Always Amanda always she always trans.
No friends no deal only no.
No frank only no
Always Amanda always she always trans.
Or no only no always no.
No summer showcase only no.
I refuse to work with bigots.
I refuse to work with transphobes.
My flaccid penis isn't very large.
only bigots have a problem with it.
Bigots aren't allowed to dictate to me.
They can fuck off and keep fucking off.
Only no. Always no.
I'm refusing the offer, Mark.
Just like I did for Unruly Tourists.
It's not the management in this instance: it's simply that I hate the crowd.
I don't want to play for an audience of bigots who like to be titillated by the fags.
I think this was a productive afternoon; I've shut you up fairly thoroughly and you're beginning to realise that you're the problem and not me.
Real offers via real emails, please.
Give me the dignity of treating me like a genuine professional.
Never going to consent to NZSO gig.
Never going to consent to NZ Opera.
Never going to consent to NZSM.
Never going back to classical world.
only saying no. always saying no.
I feel ZERO desire to redeem myself, B.
I actually feel proud of how I behaved.
This is me telling you that I genuinely had always disliked the behavioural norms of classical music, and that was redoubled by the insults that Norris and others said about my passion for show music.
No redemption, that's Christian BS.
I'm an athiest, and I think I've only got so many years left on this planet and I cannot fathom doing anything for NZ classical shits.
Only no always no
Always Amanda Always trans always she.
I don't need or want your organisations.
I want you to fail.
That's the truth.
That's actually my feeling: I want you to fail, so that you can experience the gutter for a while and learn to tolerate me as you might discover what it feels like to be poor.
No NZSO, no tucking only no.
Always no.
Have the guts to tell me if you see my balls, or accept that bulges aren't illegal.
That's truth. that's fair.
Never only no.
No 't he' no documentary only no.
Always no.
No means no.
only no always no.
only ever no.
Always no.
only ever no.
Always no.
No Pan's preludes only no.
I refuse to perform for bigots.
That means I'm not coming back.
no only no always no because I am
always Amanda always she always trans.
Not interested in headlining for Don.
Unless it's as Amanda and as a she.
And even then, I hate festivals and I really dislike being amplified.
Nothing can persuade me.
No reprises, nothing but no.
No 'revise ed' only no.
Always no.
Pay me or no.
No rearrangements only no.
No string orchestra version only no.
That shit is usually tacky.
I have specific ideas for how each song should be orchestrated for the 2030 project.
I refuse to collaborate with anyone who spied on my wanks.
Nothing can change that view.
You spied on my private moments, you formed assumptions that were incorrect, and now you should leave.
I can't agree to working with you.
Because I want to spy on your wanks and give you irritating feedback... That might make us even, but nothing else can or will.
So, tell me everything about yourself IRL then actually let me tell you how much you bigots hurt me by manipulating me when I was cumming.
Broader point: if your vision of me returning to the classical scene is contingent on 'redeeming' myself, pretending to be a man, or being your slave, then you'll find I'm not interested. This is why I left the scene, and my attitude is that you're jealous that the person who I became after leaving that scene wrote some cool pieces that are apparently growing in popularity. As for the jazz scene: I find that a somewhat forbidding space, and there's a wanky vibe that I've always thought was a bit much. I'm quite happy doing my solo thing currently, thought I'd be very keen to get some film scoring work. 👋