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'train' ... no, I'm not a tool of the establishment

  • Writer: Amanda Riddell
    Amanda Riddell
  • Dec 14, 2025
  • 2 min read

No. Never. I'm not performing at the moment, and the Lilburn fellowship is not an opportunity for me; it's a trap to force me into 'helping' the NZSM by pretending as if you tolerated my sexual and gender diversity. You have never paid for my music, and you're not about to start now. The only reason you want me to take the fellowship is to teach first-year students. No performing, no practicing, no composing, no teaching for a bigoted establishment. After you tried to access my personal computer to 'fix' my compositions live, which was something you did while I wasn't enrolled as a student, you have to back down and tolerate my decision to refuse. I can't work with people that would use remote access to stalk and 'improve' my music. Dr. Lisik and Dr. Fisher have to admit they did this. As a result, I can't return, and I'd rather see you in court. VUW will either settle, or they will face harassment charges. - Pay out. Admit fault. There is no other path to avoiding convictions.

Sit or stand in a room. Say sorry. Write the cheque. Provide the income statements.


That's where Salina fails. She made several hundred thousand dollars while costing me $10,000+.

That's why the income statements are important: you have to admit that you were being paid more than me, while preventing me from receiving a fair payment for my work.


Otherwise, everyone will think we're equals socioeconomically. You have personally made several hundred thousand dollars each while I made less than $20,000 a year.

That's where your case fails. That's why you have to compensate me.


Salina, you have to stop now. I'm not coming back, as is my legal right.

Your dad is some filthy rich guy, but you still have to lose.

You still have to acknowledge your childish behaviour when I called you out.

The law is plain, and the cops are pressuring me to charge everyone.


I tried not to, as I've known you for so long, but you've kept being an evil bitch.


Much like Luxon enabling his kids to troll me might well backfire. - Dr. Fisher has to accept that her bribe has failed, and Dr. Fisher has to apologise. The answer is simple: no classical recitals; nothing that contributes. You have to give up, you have to pay me for my compositions. You have to prepare to settle with me over harassment claims. I didn't try to gain access to your personal computer, nor did I use porn to harass you. That's what the NZSM did. Move on. Find another saviour. Stop making me into a charity case/cash cow. You chose Jake over me. It's too late to switch to pretending like you like me. - Admit you found me uncomfortable and creepy, and presumed I was retarded. Say that you used illegal techniques to bully me. Pay me a fair sum for essentially chasing me out by not supervising me during postgrad. Acknowledge your failures to treat me equally, then correct them via a cash payment. You will have no choice but to. You have to let me win this war. There is no tactic that can assuage me. Settle. Apologise. Avoid jail.

 
 
 

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