The Big Smoke

Ok, well from a marketing perspective, that Ad was a massive success. 🤣 Here's the stats: Reach 25,866 Link clicks (the screenplay) 4,870 25.2% women 74.8% men Locations -- this was a hit in Samoa and Sri Lanka. That's where a chunk of my audience is, due to the song cycle. 😊 Western Province 7473 Central Province 3264 Samoa 2760 Tonga 1176 Auckland region 83 Waikato 64 Bay of Plenty 57 -- Snark: see .. far from being an obnoxious shit, I've been building a large global audience. I'll show an NZ-only ad stats after this. 👍 - It wasn't the most successful Ad I've run, but it was a half-hour show, and I advertised it outside NZ. However, the aftermath drove me over the edge and I'm still not fully recovered. The script was great, but no, I'm not interested. While everyone may have loved Amanda's whisper accompanying visuals of cartoonified Auckland, that had absolutely nothing to do with whether I could play Tina. That was broadcasting, which I've become more comfortable with due to the Dak film, but I'm not an actor, and attempting to make me one made me a nuisance shouting in the middle of the night ... yes, I'm aware of that, but not embarrassed. I attribute this insanity to the harsh feedback about my voice, and paranoias that arose from people lacking the guts to write me about how they felt about my shows. This is why I'm not saving the NZSM or any of that bs. I've had enough of people in the arts mocking me and that's why I got mean and vicious. My satire bought me respect, I reckon, even though it's a dark, dark script. - What The Big Smoke demonstrated to me was that I wasn't able to carry the screen, and the pretty images were more effective (much like the recent Golden Springs one). That's been a key element of my style re: documentaries, and I'm not super-keen to do the sort of documentaries that Guyon Espiner or Paddy Gower do. I think my own thing relishes the art movie influences and has a more contemporary vibe. As for 'falling in love' with Chloe - it's only straight people who assume that's a sexual thing. I love lots of people without wanting to bone them, though I do fantasise about people fucking me... there's nothing wrong with masochism, and that is obviously my orientation. - Telling me 'I used to suck, but don't suck now' doesn't make me feel better. I know I'm good, and that's why I'm using my newfound talents to ream people out for treating me like shit. That's what AM was all about. Plus I usually win eventually. I'm really persistent, and I've improved largely due to isolating myself from all the people who made me lack confidence and made me feel like I didn't belong in their world... That's why I'm somewhat skeptical of claims that another method would suit me better -- this is the one that broke through; my bedroom pop vibe has brought that understanding and respect that straight me wasn't able to get due to the creepy rumours that spread about me back then. I always think those people who bitched and moaned about my slagging them off should have come clean about what they said behind my back when I was 18-25. That's why I have very little respect for the NZSM. 👌