The apologies

Are the bare minimum requirement for anyone who wishes I’d make an appearance at their gigs: plus I absolutely refuse to use my singing voice for money.

I do not want to make a career as a singer, and you have to accept I am saying this for my own sanity.

You people pushing me has driven me off the cliff, and now I’m saying what the terms are.

I made my apologies, and I was sincere, so it is time for all of you to treat me with respect and acknowledge your assumptions about me were wrong.

- I expect to be in my Grandma's will, and apparently she has quite a nest egg. Plus my Mum was saying she might not leave the other kids anything, so yeah... So money isn't a problem for me. If anything, people should be thinking of me as a producer who has invested a lot of money into my sound and my visuals. -

I love playing music. It’s literally the main reason that I’m still alive. And until I had to defend my new style, I had an amazing time coming up with it, and it’s totally unique.

I don’t like competitions, and I don’t like the way money affects how people make music.

I hated being a competitive guitarist, and I’d hate being a competitive singer for the same reasons.

It brought out the worst in me: I actually think of my activism as the best of me. Those guys set me on the right course in life, not any of my teachers (who all disavowed me).

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I may be one of the best musicians in the country, but I got that way by throwing out the rulebook and embracing DIY.

I love musicals, but for completely different reasons than the theatre kids. I want to watch them, not be in them. I’m a writer, and nobody thought much of my performances until I started singing Kiwi.

It’s not Don’s voice: it’s just that we happen to be similar. I can’t change that: I grew up on his music, and he was my Dad’s fav Kiwi songwriter, so my Dad probably had that idea for my career too.

And if Don really is into show music and jazz, I’m not surprised. Though it’s funny, given his serious rocker image. I think it says that my generation is over the cringe that his generation had about the R&H tunes and all that jazz.

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I’m not moving. Being close to the office is rather important. And while I’m sure that Chloe would rather I lived up north, I really want to keep this job.

People could visit me. That would help my mental health.

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It’s utterly irrelevant whether she feels the same way about me. And to be honest, everyone trying to fuck with my head makes it difficult for me to tell if anything about the last 5 years of my life is real or not.

All I know is that you told me that Chloe was into me.

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I’m not able to make Chloefilm for orchestra. It uses tape processes to create those sounds. The opening part is the final guitar melody reversed.

And I used pitch-shift techniques. Just remaster my tape so it sounds better.