I'm not rebuilding the band

Without my brother, it's just not viable. Nobody knows me well enough to trust me, and it took me years to persuade friends of ours to even meet me after he sold the house and told everyone it was all my fault. My solo thing is going quite well, and my immediate film goals involve starting another documentary + a gig film. Even then, I've only got one reply about the gig film... - Revealing -- my own kink and how I manage it. I'm very into BDSM as an emotional thing, but not into it physically. - I think that I have some very influential supporters so, despite flagrantly breaking some laws, it seems that people are willing to fit that into the category of civil disobedience for the cause. Plus I think there were probably several laws that people were surprised I didn't break, despite deviating widely from social norms. As for 2023: blaming my problems on the dope when you've spent 8 months with my nuts in a vice trying to make me reverse my decision on the Tina story is nonsense. Obviously, the people pressuring me are the key stressor, not the weed. The threat of jail has been the sword of damocles hovering over my head for a while now, and I'd much rather that those people backed off for a while to see if I improve without that pressure filling my feeds. Why isn't it acceptable that I want to work on my writing? That's my strength, while I'm not as good at performing, though I'm plenty good at that. I tried practicing some classical guitar rep recently, but concluded that I'm not in the mood to do that atm. I'm not particularly planning to sing next month, though. I felt the mostly instrumental thing worked well on K Road.