Comments that I'm sick of

'you were better as a guy' -- says the people that have never met me as Amanda. 'we'll love you if you detransition' - no, I'm entitled to free expression.

'I do that at home with my girlfriend' - yeah, you and a lot of other guys. Unlike the closet cases, I'm the one that is definitely NOT a fetishist. 🏳️‍⚧️ - 'I loved it when your music wasn't political' - says the arts people that are stooges of identity politics. I'm not anti-identity politics, but you're actually inventing a lot of the 'politics' in my animations.

Your interpretations are not correct by default; death of the author isn't true in movies.

'Why won't you produce your Tina script?' - Because I'm allowed to refuse, and I'm writing a book that will condense this blog, plus use those characters and situations. - 'Why are you still protesting?' - Because cannabis is still illegal, and so are many of the other drugs that I enjoy consuming. 'Why won't you get clean?' - Because I'm over 18 and the music that you actually want, and the scripts that you actually want, were written by, for and about drugs.

How many of you are steady drinkers or recreational drug users? - 'Be nicer to Cass' - no. They should actually email me.

'Be nicer to Salina' - no. I'm done with NZSM, and it's time for them to accept that. 'You're a racist bigot' - no. I stand by my track record of treating people as people, but also avoiding tokenising people on the basis of their ethnicity or gender or sex.

We really had a team that was hugely diverse, but unlike my peers, we never thought to call a huge amount of attention to that. Check out the pleasant RP Movie Orgy: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLdPWURKgx3sYcdnd1DDVdp8DLgV1i-cvI Gay people can write about straight people, trans people can write about cis people, men can write about women and women can write about men. That's my view. - 'Be like Andrew Bicknell or Mark Lockett, except also be our drug dealer' - NO. 😠

Seriously, the only way to do a club is with no sales. That's what Chris Fowlie told me. That's the legal reality: you're all well-off, you fucking stalkers, so get your goddamn medical prescriptions and accept that my idea is a small, exclusive club. Like, seriously, a membership of 50 or less. That's the vision that I have. In fact, once you bother to get those prescriptions, you can smoke anywhere and everywhere. I'm not Carmen: I'm not letting you rich people walk all over me. Set up your own bar/restaurant for yourselves, or just smoke weed at BATS. Leave me alone, theatre kids. - 'Please do Tina to save jobs' - only no. You're refusing to pay me for my first draft, you're refusing to accept my statements that you cannot 'integrate' my EP songs and after a year of fucking fighting, no means no. VUW and the coalition government are the enemies, not Amanda Riddell Inc.

I'm only ever going to refuse to perform the role of Tina, but I've said on countless occasions that you could simply buy my script. That would still create the jobs, and I'd get money to actually pursue MY interests. $50,000. That's the quote, and given you were talking $1 million for a budget, that is absolutely fair, and allows money for others to write subsequent drafts. - The so-called talent army has refused to write to me, refused to speak to me, and is only supporting me if I do the Tina film. Sadly, that's not how this works: the truth is that the people that get to decide whether a project is a go are the writer, director and producer. As the writer, I'm not satisfied with your notes, and I refuse to collaborate with you in any way, shape or form regarding Tina because I am writing a serialised story version at this exact moment. I'm doing my short films and Shipwrecked 2030. You can either say yes to Amanda's dreams, or you can fuck off and leave me alone. Purchase my Tina story, then leave me alone. - 'you ruined Don and Chloe's lives' - no. They're still rich and successful. I didn't call Don a trannie until AFTER the election. Nobody cared, and I wasn't advertising. That was on my personal page, not my business page. Chloe's now the co-leader of the 'leading movement of the left' -- I think that my impact was probably beneficial, despite our fights.

In fact, Don got added to the Hall of Fame AFTER I got really into his music, and there was commentary that suggested my Anchor Me cover was part of that, which was me following up on his Nature cover. 👋🏻 - 'You ruined Jake's life' - No. Everyone took his side, and I was the pariah. I've apologised to Jake on several different occasions. He never replied. I really wanted him to fuck off to Sweden and do his PhD; that's why I decided to shame him rather than to press charges. -

'you're a homophobe' - perhaps, but I campaigned for Marriage Equality. I believe that gay people should have safe spaces, but those spaces aren't safe for people like me that aren't into sex. Watch Ace of Hearts: it's not just me. -

'Let us fix you' - NO. You're the ones that ruined my life in the first place, NZSM and Red Scare and Wellington. You made me have to fight you because you treated me like a sex offender, when I was not charged, I was not prosecuted, and the Police have never mentioned it. Only NO. Always NO. Compensate me like those Argentinian people were in that documentary that Ricardo Menendez March screened. I don't need your help: I need your money to get away from you. - 'Stop being so stubborn' - No. That's my signature.

I've got the Scots-Irish temperament: stubborness, sudden rages, frugality, Presbytarian work ethic... all that good stuff. - 'Why so harsh on Jane?' - Well, I'm really sick of people stalking me without writing, and that's another relationship where I was tired of doing all the heavy lifting. 'Why so harsh on Barbara?' - Because she accused me of flashing her and her family. I was wearing trousers and I was wearing undies. Bulge fear is discriminatory. Then you wonder why I refuse to do gigs.... I will never gig because the bulge fear paranoia from Wellington is actually something that I get to say demands an apology and compensation. I confronted her about that recently. Another email that wasn't replied to. Given that, she cannot play Jade until she meets me one-on-one as Amanda.

I won't act it with her, but if she seriously wants to do it, then she can buy it.

- Here's what I want to hear: 'How can we fix your life?' - By respecting my freedoms, respecting my copyrights, and actually socialising with me. Give it a try: next time you read my blog and I mention you, ask me about it. Hit me up about the acid, or just hit me up because you miss me. That would be re-integrating me to society after years of being surveilled, harrassed, intimidated and discriminated against for being trans and doing drugs. When I tell you that I want to be a professional editor and work in news/government jobs that I've actually done before, respect that.