Be realistic, Steve

You're just a stand-in for most of the professional entertainment industry in this rant. If I was so keen to avoid being Tina that I was briefly hospitalised on several occasions, and pressure to be her was identified as a cause by my mental health team - alongside pressure and tension from uni - then why in the hell would you think that I would ever change my mind? No matter which you choose, the carrot or the stick, my stance is rooted in legality and not overbearing emotional pleas from people that overpromised to their allies. To all the crew people and actors:

That financial windfall isn't out of reach: all you gotta do is tell Steve that TVNZ will be optioning the rights to my book and finding another team to make it in order for that project to exist, and for him to fulfill his promise to you. Then I get paid. You get paid. We all get paid, and a powerful producer is humiliated by a transvestite that lives in a boarding house ("emergency housing" for my enemies) for being a prick and not respecting me or my lifestyle.

That money can go into travel, funding the opera, or funding taonga tākaro. All of which are better options that are more suited to my skills and training.

NZSM and Victoria University will also accept a reality in which they can't control me, and my output will remain fiercely independent from mainstream classical, using synth to shame them into writing music people actually want to listen to.