'accidents'

To start with, where does Mr. Luxon or the National Party get off ascribing intent to my actions when they've never spoken to me? To clarify for the Parliamentarians:

My skirt flaring up as I get out of a chair? accident. Gary made a joke about wardrobe malfunctions when that happened. Rubbing my arse on the balustrade as I bent down to pick up my bag check chit? accident, though I also saw the humour in it.

Balls partially slipping out of my underwear? definitely an accident, and honestly how much could you possibly see from dozens of metres away at a low angle? As I say, the penis police are the ones obsessed with my junk, not me. - These same explanations also apply to all those Wellington parents that have completely ruined my life. There's no grand scheme here where I'm obscenely exposing myself, and to think that merely because you believe that my sexual orientation is sick and wrong demonstrates a blinkered and (yes) bigoted worldview. It's nice that people believe me about all this transphobia in 2024, but it doesn't really solve the mamae from 2020-2023. See, I'm using more words now that I'm actually studying Te Reo Māori. - To start with, I'm not actually a TV fetishist. Lots of women view themselves as the object of desire when they masturbate, and that's considered healthy and normal. I wear the clothes for other reasons, mostly to do with being raised to be a fafa. As for my psychiatrist: no, I'm not planning to begin HRT or genital reassignment. Sorry! I don't think that masturbating is inherently unhealthy, but I do think it's unhealthy in the current context, where people have become aware of my DeviantArt profile and are clearly manufacturing images designed to force my consent to be Tina.

Much like those same people built up my crush on Chloe into an obsession because they thought I was anti-Asian. Absolute nonsense: Lucinda's my best friend, and Cass isn't because she's needy, she's vain and I don't like her music. Stu, that's my psychiatrist, I'm never going to 'try in' - the answer is that I have the legal right to refuse. You clearly don't think I'm unwell enough for a CTO, given that I'm taking my medication, making positive choices and actually improving slightly overall.

The only thing holding me back from the life that I want to live is this bullshit about my dick, about Tina and about my statements regarding my enemies, even though very few were defamatory.

Truth and opinion = defences against defamation. As for thinking Jane was dead... well, it represents that she's basically dead to me and also that I get paranoid when people are constantly trying to manipulate me. You try staying sane under 24/7 surveillance. Try figuring out what's true and what's not when people are constantly threatening you via back channels... You try staying sane when your friends ditch you, your mentors excoriate you and the public is led to believe that you're a menace, despite no charges having been filed. - Why am I writing this? Because in my porn feed there's a distinct sense that my enemies think I should take a charge for indecent exposure and make Tina as my penance. Again, they're legally wrong: exposure itself isn't actually illegal, and I sincerely doubt that anyone has seen my full, naked, penis and balls in a public space. I'm hardly the first trannie to be put through the wringer for this... it's a common problem for trans people. Particularly those of us who aren't attempting to pass: most of this hysteria was about the bulge, not about visible veins and skin. Has anyone who is spying along with this actually seen my penis in real life? The Police simply and plainly haven't charged me, haven't discussed this with me, and aren't actively investigating me. I know: I've called them up and gone to the station on multiple occasions because you shits have made me so fucking paranoid about my junk. It's the SIS and the GCSB that I'm trying to tell to back off currently. They're the ones that are still actively messing with me. Newsflash: I'm not being paid $180,000 a year to be spied on 24/7 and be fully accountable to the public. I'm making roughly $20,000 this year, and in fact I think that I'm still meeting that standard of accountability, even though I sincerely wish that the coalition would actually confront me rather than trying to use this situation with Chloe to push me around. - I want this to be the last word on this whole fucking saga. You ruined my sex life, you ruined my self-confidence and you basically cost me a job. Despite what must have been some OTT lobbying from my enemies, the Police have taken my side in this saga. My dick isn't a crime; stop making me think that it is.